not suicidal lol
by Natalie Elizabeth (Notes) on Friday, February 4, 2011 at 3:49am
plotting my own demise
waiting to be surprised
tired of all the lies
watching as he dies
you meant everything
staring at the sun
sun spots clouding my vision
red haze
fury and rage
locked in this eternal cage
anger so high i cannot gage
if looks could ******* ****
as i take the next handful of pills
thinking of you makes me ill
scraping my fist against your grill
i dont know what to think of you
holding my breath turning blue
you used to be my steadfast glue
i should have expected this
its nothing new
i love to hate
and
i hate to love
am i holding on to only wisps?
you in my mind is something ive missed
there yet unattainable
i cant count on you to remain stable
whats a girl supposed to do?
when she constantly comes unglued
due to only you?
Mar 24, 2013
Mar 24, 2013 at 12:04 AM UTC
not suicidal lol
by Natalie Elizabeth (Notes) on Friday, February 4, 2011 at 3:49am
plotting my own demise
waiting to be surprised
tired of all the lies
watching as he dies
you meant everything
staring at the sun
sun spots clouding my vision
red haze
fury and rage
locked in this eternal cage
anger so high i cannot gage
if looks could ******* ****
as i take the next handful of pills
thinking of you makes me ill
scraping my fist against your grill
i dont know what to think of you
holding my breath turning blue
you used to be my steadfast glue
i should have expected this
its nothing new
i love to hate
and
i hate to love
am i holding on to only wisps?
you in my mind is something ive missed
there yet unattainable
i cant count on you to remain stable
whats a girl supposed to do?
when she constantly comes unglued
due to only you?
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