I am too hard to love
Too hard on the eye to look at without squinting
I am too stiff to hold
Too cold against your skin for comfort
I am too quiet to be heard
So I scream but I forget what to scream about
And then I'm just screaming
I am too big to cradle
My limbs too long and my heart too bitter
To be rocked back and forth
I am too soft
Too ready to cry
Too ready to say yes out of fear of losing
I am too afraid
I exist too largely
Taking up space in all the nooks and crannies
My feelings spilling out into places they shouldn’t be
I am too heavy
My brain oozing, rotten from the pressure of me
My thoughts now turned to mush and impossible to decipher
I am too hard to love
Too confused and volatile to trust
I am too stiff to hold
I cut off my hands to stop them from hurting and
Now I can’t hold you back
Jun 9, 2019
Jun 9, 2019 at 9:01 PM UTC
I am too hard to love
Too hard on the eye to look at without squinting
I am too stiff to hold
Too cold against your skin for comfort
I am too quiet to be heard
So I scream but I forget what to scream about
And then I'm just screaming
I am too big to cradle
My limbs too long and my heart too bitter
To be rocked back and forth
I am too soft
Too ready to cry
Too ready to say yes out of fear of losing
I am too afraid
I exist too largely
Taking up space in all the nooks and crannies
My feelings spilling out into places they shouldn’t be
I am too heavy
My brain oozing, rotten from the pressure of me
My thoughts now turned to mush and impossible to decipher
I am too hard to love
Too confused and volatile to trust
I am too stiff to hold
I cut off my hands to stop them from hurting and
Now I can’t hold you back
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