It took until now
thin and mid 20s
to comprehend
that as a child I was
and as an adult
still very much am
spoiled
little childhood
traumas to mine
no festering drama
no shrouded mess
calm can bury like a
gravity blanket
too hot or too cold
I complain
I have never clawed
at my belly in hunger
felt my body
fall off in jeweled
pieces but I have
at times been
hungry
adulthood is a lake
blue black and endless
rife with mudtraps
brimming with viperheads
scraping at the surface water
I am spoiled
I have not known pain
but I knew a person
whose eyes prodded
like nails through jello
my insides and cut
tendrils of muscle
and delighted in the
stitching back
the pushing of
needle through
meaty bits
some time after
I was grown
but flailing madly
as a comet poised
for landfall
a beetle in
a dust storm
a child with its
first scraped knee
my flesh yearns
for the needle
and for skin all
smooth and
scarred and
like the color of night
singing
like the color of night
like sky like light
a rapturous blue
Mar 27, 2019
Mar 27, 2019 at 9:52 PM UTC
It took until now
thin and mid 20s
to comprehend
that as a child I was
and as an adult
still very much am
spoiled
little childhood
traumas to mine
no festering drama
no shrouded mess
calm can bury like a
gravity blanket
too hot or too cold
I complain
I have never clawed
at my belly in hunger
felt my body
fall off in jeweled
pieces but I have
at times been
hungry
adulthood is a lake
blue black and endless
rife with mudtraps
brimming with viperheads
scraping at the surface water
I am spoiled
I have not known pain
but I knew a person
whose eyes prodded
like nails through jello
my insides and cut
tendrils of muscle
and delighted in the
stitching back
the pushing of
needle through
meaty bits
some time after
I was grown
but flailing madly
as a comet poised
for landfall
a beetle in
a dust storm
a child with its
first scraped knee
my flesh yearns
for the needle
and for skin all
smooth and
scarred and
like the color of night
singing
like the color of night
like sky like light
a rapturous blue
