The most scary thing, at least to me, is being told you can't have kids.
Now it is not like I wanted kids.
But the thought of when my doctor told me so casually at a young age that I may never be able to, has always scared me.
I wasn't that old. Someone who never got my monthly at the age 16. And a doctor just bluntly tells me I am messed up.
Now years later it still isn't fixed and I stay worried
That I will disappoint someone I am with.
People tell me that is it fine. They were told the same thing.
But it isn't fine! I am not you! And what happens if it is true.
I am told by my friends that I am blessed. To never really get a monthly or to get it every few months. It isn't lucky. My bones are brittle and I always have a nagging feeling that I will disappoint my partner. But I won't say anything. It is too soon for that. But at some point he will click two and two together. He is very smart after all.
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 1:48 AM UTC
The most scary thing, at least to me, is being told you can't have kids.
Now it is not like I wanted kids.
But the thought of when my doctor told me so casually at a young age that I may never be able to, has always scared me.
I wasn't that old. Someone who never got my monthly at the age 16. And a doctor just bluntly tells me I am messed up.
Now years later it still isn't fixed and I stay worried
That I will disappoint someone I am with.
People tell me that is it fine. They were told the same thing.
But it isn't fine! I am not you! And what happens if it is true.
I am told by my friends that I am blessed. To never really get a monthly or to get it every few months. It isn't lucky. My bones are brittle and I always have a nagging feeling that I will disappoint my partner. But I won't say anything. It is too soon for that. But at some point he will click two and two together. He is very smart after all.
