i ought to wake up
from this nightmare i’m in,
i ought to forget
the world that i’ve seen.
a bottle of saturn tears
in my hand,
ready to get emptied
on my every command.
she was who i shared
my dreams with at night,
now nights only trip
over fears that i hide.
we once danced in desert,
with sand in our eyes,
but she’s now in hiding
wearing a different disguise.
the stars cry
and milky way echoes.
i drank half the poison,
shattered my soul.
i weeped horizons
in your belonging.
forgotten myself as
i’ve fallen asleep.
now you and i
and stars remember.
but new memories
cannot be made.
i’m leaving you now,
alone, to surrender
the past into nightmare,
that i’m living in.
Feb 10, 2019
Feb 10, 2019 at 4:12 AM UTC
i ought to wake up
from this nightmare i’m in,
i ought to forget
the world that i’ve seen.
a bottle of saturn tears
in my hand,
ready to get emptied
on my every command.
she was who i shared
my dreams with at night,
now nights only trip
over fears that i hide.
we once danced in desert,
with sand in our eyes,
but she’s now in hiding
wearing a different disguise.
the stars cry
and milky way echoes.
i drank half the poison,
shattered my soul.
i weeped horizons
in your belonging.
forgotten myself as
i’ve fallen asleep.
now you and i
and stars remember.
but new memories
cannot be made.
i’m leaving you now,
alone, to surrender
the past into nightmare,
that i’m living in.
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