Can I please just take a break from this stupid roleplay I created?

gothmetalnerd Poems

Wish I Could Say no to you And be as strong As you think I am I'm afraid Living in this cycle is bearable But for how long? How long will it take me To destroy everything even more Then that I already did How can I live with this Because the feeling After breaking you Will be just as bad as before I am confused I am screaming I am happy I am silent I am all at once I am me A terrible person Who hurts Who breaks Who cries But mostly Makes other people be And the worst part is I don't even know why So one last time Sorry I just want To be the one To speak her name as mine Even in my dreams She's here But does that count as cheating? Because it feels Just as good And just as bad Even my poems show that broken is not broken Enough for me but nobody seems to realise How Can I scream for help I want to How Can I get out of this stupid roleplay I created Out of this lie Out of this love Out of everyone Without breaking something There is Only one question left Why do I give out signs for help, If help. Will make this word I created, And destroyed Even worse The pieces are finally getting back together _Help_