But, my god.
He was just a little boy.
I’d never seen eyes like that,
like the ones that were watching me right then,
hallowed, gauging whether
I might be a threat to him.
Cute when he was happy,
so small, he looked 3.
Because they starved him.
He would talk to you.
Short sentences.
Speech stopped progressing
at age 3.
When he got angry,
he would use horrible words.
The only tool he ever learned
for emotions that he couldn’t understand.
Curses.
Wild threats.
He would spit in your face
and threaten to **** you.
Who taught him that?
His only tools.
But, my god.
He was just a little boy.
Meeting him
at a time that
I was absolutely
powerless,
crumpled
hope and
understanding
reality.
I couldn't help him,
and the ones who could
treated him like
a chore,
mindless work
without reward.
Grown-ups,
tasked to protect him,
held him down
yelling demands of complacency.
What kind of things
did they force on him back home?
Of course, he spits the pills out,
he couldn’t possibly
understand.
There is that
word again.
If you say
“It’s like he’s three.”
Then you cannot
treat him like
a prisoner, for
he has committed no crime.
Oh, god,
they hurt him in so many ways.
I cried for him every night,
barely sleeping the entire week there.
I couldn't imagine how he felt,
alone in that room.
They assumed he’d
attack. I was only
the girl in the wheelchair.
Behind his eyes
Lies an island of nightmares.
There is no turnaround here,
now I know:
I am the one
who couldn’t possibly understand.
- - -
This boy was 7 years old.
I am writing this poem to the universe, itself. Throwing out an aching wish to anyone listening.
Please, please, protect him.
Because my god,
he was just a little boy
who deserves to know what love feels like.
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 5:49 PM UTC
But, my god.
He was just a little boy.
I’d never seen eyes like that,
like the ones that were watching me right then,
hallowed, gauging whether
I might be a threat to him.
Cute when he was happy,
so small, he looked 3.
Because they starved him.
He would talk to you.
Short sentences.
Speech stopped progressing
at age 3.
When he got angry,
he would use horrible words.
The only tool he ever learned
for emotions that he couldn’t understand.
Curses.
Wild threats.
He would spit in your face
and threaten to **** you.
Who taught him that?
His only tools.
But, my god.
He was just a little boy.
Meeting him
at a time that
I was absolutely
powerless,
crumpled
hope and
understanding
reality.
I couldn't help him,
and the ones who could
treated him like
a chore,
mindless work
without reward.
Grown-ups,
tasked to protect him,
held him down
yelling demands of complacency.
What kind of things
did they force on him back home?
Of course, he spits the pills out,
he couldn’t possibly
understand.
There is that
word again.
If you say
“It’s like he’s three.”
Then you cannot
treat him like
a prisoner, for
he has committed no crime.
Oh, god,
they hurt him in so many ways.
I cried for him every night,
barely sleeping the entire week there.
I couldn't imagine how he felt,
alone in that room.
They assumed he’d
attack. I was only
the girl in the wheelchair.
Behind his eyes
Lies an island of nightmares.
There is no turnaround here,
now I know:
I am the one
who couldn’t possibly understand.
- - -
This boy was 7 years old.
I am writing this poem to the universe, itself. Throwing out an aching wish to anyone listening.
Please, please, protect him.
Because my god,
he was just a little boy
who deserves to know what love feels like.
I met this boy almost a year ago, and I still think about him. I truly hope he is ok.