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I pondered killing the one I hated most The horrifying villain inside of me I never let it show outside my skin But if I didn’t disappear it would win The creature looked just like me Perhaps why I hated it most Because it was who I am But could never let anyone see I wanted to **** it before it became me I tried to fight it, yet it engulfed my existence By trying to ****** the devil inside myself I ended up destroying the only bits I loved I am gone. That was me, I miss them. All I have become is the monster I tried to end Shrinking my externality would decrease the inside Or perhaps that’s what I thought would happen Could I compensate for the nonliteral space The space and existence I seem to waste With my voice, my thoughts, my soul Could I force myself not to exist at all? In a quest to shed my shell I shed only the neutrality of myself The villain still strongly resides It wears my face and now it shrinks me too It devours them, the me I love There is so little left to know Completely entirely possessed By the thing I tried to suppress I am withering away If you know me, you don’t Just the devil inside masquerading Think I can come back? I probably won’t.
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Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:20 AM UTC
It Wears My Face Because I Tried To **** It
I pondered killing the one I hated most The horrifying villain inside of me I never let it show outside my skin But if I didn’t disappear it would win The creature looked just like me Perhaps why I hated it most Because it was who I am But could never let anyone see I wanted to **** it before it became me I tried to fight it, yet it engulfed my existence By trying to ****** the devil inside myself I ended up destroying the only bits I loved I am gone. That was me, I miss them. All I have become is the monster I tried to end Shrinking my externality would decrease the inside Or perhaps that’s what I thought would happen Could I compensate for the nonliteral space The space and existence I seem to waste With my voice, my thoughts, my soul Could I force myself not to exist at all? In a quest to shed my shell I shed only the neutrality of myself The villain still strongly resides It wears my face and now it shrinks me too It devours them, the me I love There is so little left to know Completely entirely possessed By the thing I tried to suppress I am withering away If you know me, you don’t Just the devil inside masquerading Think I can come back? I probably won’t.
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shutupchrissy
17/Non-binary/Pittsburgh
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:20 AM UTC
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