tuck my face behind the camera
myself in the shadow of the corner
colors slashed on paper
fingers raw from the strings
my eyes heavy lidded,
I never knew that self-deception was such an art
or that my inner critic
was my greatest enemy
embrace change?
I always have
Now my throat sighs and misses joy
My limbs do not celebrate,
they yell to me
too quietly
my brain runs the show
It has run down the tracks
This is sly flirtation with death
stop talking
I want to listen to the water and the trees,
I am paralyzed here,
fear for the future
pathetic
screams the monster
pick myself apart at the seams
something birdlike and cryptic
but not beautiful
Dec 28, 2012
Dec 28, 2012 at 3:50 AM UTC
tuck my face behind the camera
myself in the shadow of the corner
colors slashed on paper
fingers raw from the strings
my eyes heavy lidded,
I never knew that self-deception was such an art
or that my inner critic
was my greatest enemy
embrace change?
I always have
Now my throat sighs and misses joy
My limbs do not celebrate,
they yell to me
too quietly
my brain runs the show
It has run down the tracks
This is sly flirtation with death
stop talking
I want to listen to the water and the trees,
I am paralyzed here,
fear for the future
pathetic
screams the monster
pick myself apart at the seams
something birdlike and cryptic
but not beautiful
