it took years for me to heal
years to see even a year into the future
but today i wrote my old ways a letter
it feels strange not being sick
my illness was what made me, well me
she’s toxic, but addicting
i miss having someone to talk to
i miss her like i miss an old friend
mon vieil ami
but lately i can feel her presence
i can hear her faint whisper
keeping me hostage
she’s all i know
so i don’t mind her visiting
or making her permanent in my life
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 9:05 PM UTC
it took years for me to heal
years to see even a year into the future
but today i wrote my old ways a letter
it feels strange not being sick
my illness was what made me, well me
she’s toxic, but addicting
i miss having someone to talk to
i miss her like i miss an old friend
mon vieil ami
but lately i can feel her presence
i can hear her faint whisper
keeping me hostage
she’s all i know
so i don’t mind her visiting
or making her permanent in my life