i have never fully grasped
serenity. calm. silence
of mind
always, going
always running, always thinking.
doing. i prepare. but alas, that is
never enough.
what if for a day
i pretended. it never happened. nothing changed
nothing hurt.
would that help?
probably not. at this point, i need understanding.
freedom from.
i apoligize.
i am vague. not a person alive
knows all. everything. since then to
now. this moment.
how could i explain?
perhaps, i could tell to you
that i feel as though i have been turned inside out, stripped, and shooken. like an
animal has climbed inside me and torched me; clawed, teared every part me. until
i am an empty carcass, living in the dark as would a zombie.
and then i would leave, quietly. secretly.
i live better that way.
as if anyone could know.
Dec 16, 2012
Dec 16, 2012 at 11:48 PM UTC
i have never fully grasped
serenity. calm. silence
of mind
always, going
always running, always thinking.
doing. i prepare. but alas, that is
never enough.
what if for a day
i pretended. it never happened. nothing changed
nothing hurt.
would that help?
probably not. at this point, i need understanding.
freedom from.
i apoligize.
i am vague. not a person alive
knows all. everything. since then to
now. this moment.
how could i explain?
perhaps, i could tell to you
that i feel as though i have been turned inside out, stripped, and shooken. like an
animal has climbed inside me and torched me; clawed, teared every part me. until
i am an empty carcass, living in the dark as would a zombie.
and then i would leave, quietly. secretly.
i live better that way.
as if anyone could know.
