I back away from the battle at hand
I'm a coward I know it believe me
but what I say they will not understand
There battles relentless no winner determined
So I pray to the heavens ask god for a chance
When no reply comes I'm lost and scared
Because god I thought was the one friend I had
So I cowered more sunk into myself
But nobody saw I just needed some help
I'm emotionally scared physically dazed
In a mindless drone I slummed by day to day
Though every night I hung my head, and prayed
Nothing got better so bitter I became
Inside angry sad outside contempt glad
No longer did I care no longer did I pray
God I felt was up there laughing at me
Trees soon lost leaves and cool air settled in
My brush never stroked the blank canvas
My voice no longer sang out in a crowd
Still not knowing what to do to make things better
The memories of your smile fueled me foreword
Gave a spark of hope in my dreary existence
One memory urged me to make it
While all the others chained me back restricting me
Not expecting a reply I hung my head once more
Absolute silence and racing thoughts
Then it was clear as day as dawn
Nov 20, 2012
Nov 20, 2012 at 7:21 PM UTC
I back away from the battle at hand
I'm a coward I know it believe me
but what I say they will not understand
There battles relentless no winner determined
So I pray to the heavens ask god for a chance
When no reply comes I'm lost and scared
Because god I thought was the one friend I had
So I cowered more sunk into myself
But nobody saw I just needed some help
I'm emotionally scared physically dazed
In a mindless drone I slummed by day to day
Though every night I hung my head, and prayed
Nothing got better so bitter I became
Inside angry sad outside contempt glad
No longer did I care no longer did I pray
God I felt was up there laughing at me
Trees soon lost leaves and cool air settled in
My brush never stroked the blank canvas
My voice no longer sang out in a crowd
Still not knowing what to do to make things better
The memories of your smile fueled me foreword
Gave a spark of hope in my dreary existence
One memory urged me to make it
While all the others chained me back restricting me
Not expecting a reply I hung my head once more
Absolute silence and racing thoughts
Then it was clear as day as dawn
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