And just as I went to kiss him back,
He led me to the grass and we watched as the stars
Dance above our heads.
My eyes grew weary and I lay my head on his chest
And listened to his hearts beating
The more I listened to his
The more I wish I hadn’t
Trusted my own
He was broken, like I had been not so long ago
We stood up and he left me,
Just as I had left the boy who chased me down on the beach
At this point I don’t know what to feel anymore.
The moon is gone, but the twinkling stars gaze down on me
Making my tears glisten in the grass beside my head,
At least he won’t know I'm hurt, he doesn’t need the guilt.
I lay there drained, saddened
My heart has no power left to pick me up
So I lay under the stars
And fall asleep to the universe whispering in my ear
I wake up dazed and confused wishing the hazel eyed boy
Was back at my house
Holding me
Making me feel secure
He does come back
But not in the way my heart longs for him to
His broad smile unravels the desire for a friendship
I can’t say no to his simple request
And numbly talk to him
Though it burns me so
We talk as good friends do
And he returns home
The numbness doesn’t pass
As I talk to a newly acquired “bud”
We discuss the wavy haired boy in great detail
My new friend tells me stories that make my head spin
I feel like I didn’t know the boy at all
Guess people change when you see them in the light
But my heartstrings tug at me once more
I remember his gentle side
And I find myself fighting against these stories
Trying to convince my mushroom friend that the other side
Of the boy exists
But the icy truth grips my emotions
As I realize I can never call him mine again.
My mind freezes up once again and I feel the numbness return.
I try to carry on talking to the smiling boy as if the stories I heard
Had changed nothing about him
But cannot
I look at him from this new point of view
But love him still
Because now I know he really is just human
Not perfect
But strong enough to live life with his imperfections
I am greatly comforted at knowing these things about him
But am continually attacked by the
Fact that I can’t call him mine ever again
Though I’ve told myself this repeatedly
I blindly follow my heart,
Trying to win him over once more
The universe tells me I'm just going to end up getting hurt
Pursuing a lost cause
But I reply simply that getting hurt is part of the adventure
And the universe smiles
Allowing me to chase my desires
Nov 17, 2012
Nov 17, 2012 at 4:15 PM UTC
And just as I went to kiss him back,
He led me to the grass and we watched as the stars
Dance above our heads.
My eyes grew weary and I lay my head on his chest
And listened to his hearts beating
The more I listened to his
The more I wish I hadn’t
Trusted my own
He was broken, like I had been not so long ago
We stood up and he left me,
Just as I had left the boy who chased me down on the beach
At this point I don’t know what to feel anymore.
The moon is gone, but the twinkling stars gaze down on me
Making my tears glisten in the grass beside my head,
At least he won’t know I'm hurt, he doesn’t need the guilt.
I lay there drained, saddened
My heart has no power left to pick me up
So I lay under the stars
And fall asleep to the universe whispering in my ear
I wake up dazed and confused wishing the hazel eyed boy
Was back at my house
Holding me
Making me feel secure
He does come back
But not in the way my heart longs for him to
His broad smile unravels the desire for a friendship
I can’t say no to his simple request
And numbly talk to him
Though it burns me so
We talk as good friends do
And he returns home
The numbness doesn’t pass
As I talk to a newly acquired “bud”
We discuss the wavy haired boy in great detail
My new friend tells me stories that make my head spin
I feel like I didn’t know the boy at all
Guess people change when you see them in the light
But my heartstrings tug at me once more
I remember his gentle side
And I find myself fighting against these stories
Trying to convince my mushroom friend that the other side
Of the boy exists
But the icy truth grips my emotions
As I realize I can never call him mine again.
My mind freezes up once again and I feel the numbness return.
I try to carry on talking to the smiling boy as if the stories I heard
Had changed nothing about him
But cannot
I look at him from this new point of view
But love him still
Because now I know he really is just human
Not perfect
But strong enough to live life with his imperfections
I am greatly comforted at knowing these things about him
But am continually attacked by the
Fact that I can’t call him mine ever again
Though I’ve told myself this repeatedly
I blindly follow my heart,
Trying to win him over once more
The universe tells me I'm just going to end up getting hurt
Pursuing a lost cause
But I reply simply that getting hurt is part of the adventure
And the universe smiles
Allowing me to chase my desires
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