I will not waste time counting losses
They only bring me down
If I allow my brain to think
In my thoughts I'll surely drown
I have built a bridge over memories
To escape rapid flow
A rail so I don't tumble
Into dangerous swells below
As long as I remain detached
Distant from usual pain
I am able to harness meager cheer
Keep myself from going insane
I feel a strengthening in my blood
A wanting no longer there
I have laid away former distractions
In favor of clean vacant air
I have done away with disorder
At least the negative kind
I am going to forget my bad habits
Regain the lost parts of my mind
No more whining or self-deprecation
Or wanting to change who I will be
I am tossing out the mocking past
Finally embracing beautiful me
May 26, 2018
May 26, 2018 at 4:50 PM UTC
I will not waste time counting losses
They only bring me down
If I allow my brain to think
In my thoughts I'll surely drown
I have built a bridge over memories
To escape rapid flow
A rail so I don't tumble
Into dangerous swells below
As long as I remain detached
Distant from usual pain
I am able to harness meager cheer
Keep myself from going insane
I feel a strengthening in my blood
A wanting no longer there
I have laid away former distractions
In favor of clean vacant air
I have done away with disorder
At least the negative kind
I am going to forget my bad habits
Regain the lost parts of my mind
No more whining or self-deprecation
Or wanting to change who I will be
I am tossing out the mocking past
Finally embracing beautiful me
Written 1/13/12
Reading this now if course brings thoughts of recovery and addictiin to my mind but this was waaaay before I ever did real drugs. It was written about my insecurities and accepting myself for the imperfect mess I am.
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