There are moments I wish to forget
There seem to be vestiges of you everywhere
That I see things not as they are
But a shadow, a spark, a thread of you
It's been some time
Enough to think I was okay
Then one day I smell your scent and your vague image slowly turned into my sharpest memory
Or maybe you were always the clearest memory
Which I chose to hide in the closet
Because I know I couldn't forget
But this is how I want to forget
I wish I could open the door and not think of the last time you closed it
I wish I could say goodbye without hearing you say it back
And these aren't all
I find myself hoping I could put all the happy moments behind
Because they were hard to beat and I never felt the same
Sometimes I wish
I could listen to a song and not hear your voice singing it to me
And read a book without seeing your delicate fingers hold the pages' ends
I wish I could wake up and not see your smile shining brighter than the sun
Or tuck the blankets in without feeling your arms wrapping around me
But I know
I know I can brave this world with just the precious memories of you.
May 20, 2018
May 20, 2018 at 2:28 AM UTC
There are moments I wish to forget
There seem to be vestiges of you everywhere
That I see things not as they are
But a shadow, a spark, a thread of you
It's been some time
Enough to think I was okay
Then one day I smell your scent and your vague image slowly turned into my sharpest memory
Or maybe you were always the clearest memory
Which I chose to hide in the closet
Because I know I couldn't forget
But this is how I want to forget
I wish I could open the door and not think of the last time you closed it
I wish I could say goodbye without hearing you say it back
And these aren't all
I find myself hoping I could put all the happy moments behind
Because they were hard to beat and I never felt the same
Sometimes I wish
I could listen to a song and not hear your voice singing it to me
And read a book without seeing your delicate fingers hold the pages' ends
I wish I could wake up and not see your smile shining brighter than the sun
Or tuck the blankets in without feeling your arms wrapping around me
But I know
I know I can brave this world with just the precious memories of you.
