I am not a book
I am not a poster
I am not someone you can read
I am not someone who shows her emotions.
I have a constant battle in me
I have a voice in my head saying “You got this!”
I have another voice saying “You’re worthless!”
I have a tornado of emotions that will not stop spinning.
You have seen me
You have heard me but
You have never known me.
I hide in dark corners
I hide from you
I hide from them
I hide from myself.
What am I afraid of?
The truth
The love
The pain
The judgment
Or maybe all of it.
With truth comes judgment and
With love comes pain.
So I hide
I bury everything
I bury sadness
I bury happiness
I bury loneliness
I bury anger
I bury joy.
But when it gets to be too much it bursts.
Everything and anything that stands in the way of that explosion gets demolished
My relationships
My friendships
My mind.
I am a broken person
I am a ticking time bomb
I am not a book.
May 11, 2018
May 11, 2018 at 7:18 PM UTC
I am not a book
I am not a poster
I am not someone you can read
I am not someone who shows her emotions.
I have a constant battle in me
I have a voice in my head saying “You got this!”
I have another voice saying “You’re worthless!”
I have a tornado of emotions that will not stop spinning.
You have seen me
You have heard me but
You have never known me.
I hide in dark corners
I hide from you
I hide from them
I hide from myself.
What am I afraid of?
The truth
The love
The pain
The judgment
Or maybe all of it.
With truth comes judgment and
With love comes pain.
So I hide
I bury everything
I bury sadness
I bury happiness
I bury loneliness
I bury anger
I bury joy.
But when it gets to be too much it bursts.
Everything and anything that stands in the way of that explosion gets demolished
My relationships
My friendships
My mind.
I am a broken person
I am a ticking time bomb
I am not a book.
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