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I was broken, I was severely unafraid Nothing mattered anymore Because I had already lost My family and my friends And my depression was kicking in too hard I wasn't trying, I wasn't caring enough Love was never enough Though there it was in overwhelming amounts I never belonged to anyone No one ever lived for me And life was being suffocated from me That emptiness within me was bruising me How polite, how unapologetic How fast, hurdling down, my decisiveness I started tumbling down, without fear Shameless, without nerves or apathy I was brilliant in the limelight But behind the shadows I was being swallowed By anonymity and solitary confinement The darkness was strangling me I left everything I was, to reach everything I thought I could be Didn't I get everything I wanted? Yeah, I thought this was the plan But I became someone else Other desires became attached to me My heart changed, my mind bent, my thoughts evolved I lost focus, in sight of love and desire I never bothered to figure What it meant to be happy, within me The work was tedious, but only on the exterior No time allotted to the dwindling interior I was broken, I was severely unafraid Nothing mattered anymore I could be starving a thousand times more I've been disillusioned many times more by banquets of contempt
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Oct 12, 2012
Oct 12, 2012 at 4:47 PM UTC
Banquets of Contempt
I was broken, I was severely unafraid Nothing mattered anymore Because I had already lost My family and my friends And my depression was kicking in too hard I wasn't trying, I wasn't caring enough Love was never enough Though there it was in overwhelming amounts I never belonged to anyone No one ever lived for me And life was being suffocated from me That emptiness within me was bruising me How polite, how unapologetic How fast, hurdling down, my decisiveness I started tumbling down, without fear Shameless, without nerves or apathy I was brilliant in the limelight But behind the shadows I was being swallowed By anonymity and solitary confinement The darkness was strangling me I left everything I was, to reach everything I thought I could be Didn't I get everything I wanted? Yeah, I thought this was the plan But I became someone else Other desires became attached to me My heart changed, my mind bent, my thoughts evolved I lost focus, in sight of love and desire I never bothered to figure What it meant to be happy, within me The work was tedious, but only on the exterior No time allotted to the dwindling interior I was broken, I was severely unafraid Nothing mattered anymore I could be starving a thousand times more I've been disillusioned many times more by banquets of contempt
October 12, 2012
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emanuel-martinez
Mexican
Oct 12, 2012
Oct 12, 2012 at 4:47 PM UTC
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