If we're all stars then I want to be a super nova
Not just another white dwarf
I want to be big and bright and expansive
And I want to bring everything my warmth
I don't want to be close to imploding
At least not ever again
I want to give life and shine and my heat
To everyone I can
But what happens when two stars collide
I don't know if you know-
They either **** each other quickly
Or come together to grow
And while I never want to collapse at all
At least not any time near soon
I tell myself I'll get close to another star again
And take a chance to see if we're immune
To see if we could shoot across the sky
Right past other lonely stars so far away
Reaching new galaxies and planets
Turning night cycles to day
But that's only in perfect circumstances
Where I find a perfect matching soul
Because the other truth - the other option
is that we'd both become black holes
The truth is I'm afraid.
Mar 9, 2018
Mar 9, 2018 at 4:07 PM UTC
If we're all stars then I want to be a super nova
Not just another white dwarf
I want to be big and bright and expansive
And I want to bring everything my warmth
I don't want to be close to imploding
At least not ever again
I want to give life and shine and my heat
To everyone I can
But what happens when two stars collide
I don't know if you know-
They either **** each other quickly
Or come together to grow
And while I never want to collapse at all
At least not any time near soon
I tell myself I'll get close to another star again
And take a chance to see if we're immune
To see if we could shoot across the sky
Right past other lonely stars so far away
Reaching new galaxies and planets
Turning night cycles to day
But that's only in perfect circumstances
Where I find a perfect matching soul
Because the other truth - the other option
is that we'd both become black holes
The truth is I'm afraid.
Coming to terms with the realization that bettering my life by gaining a real adult career, focusing on bettering my health, and trying to be a more respectable, happier person overall isn't fixing my fear of commitment and love like I thought it would.
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