In the sun, in July, it looks the same outside.
But only if you squint.
I memorized the floor plans,
Of where everything should go,
Should’ve gone,
Superimposed memories of the hallways,
They line the bedrooms, and
Panic attack if it doesn’t all fit
if these aren’t the right people
if the furniture has changed.
Want to put it all back the way it used to be,
Needs to be, or should be, and
Panic attack if I think about ghosts too long
if I think about winter too much
if I accept it is not the same
and never will be.
Sep 30, 2012
Sep 30, 2012 at 2:19 AM UTC
In the sun, in July, it looks the same outside.
But only if you squint.
I memorized the floor plans,
Of where everything should go,
Should’ve gone,
Superimposed memories of the hallways,
They line the bedrooms, and
Panic attack if it doesn’t all fit
if these aren’t the right people
if the furniture has changed.
Want to put it all back the way it used to be,
Needs to be, or should be, and
Panic attack if I think about ghosts too long
if I think about winter too much
if I accept it is not the same
and never will be.