I became a girl he didn't recognize
With a voice he had never heard
And I stopped walking on water
I outgrew being his easy girl
His ever understanding wife
And suddenly, I could do plenty wrong
I learned things
A whole new vocabulary
Ethical non monogamy
Agency
Autonomy
Egalitarian
Words and definitions that felt like home to me
But perhaps they felt like rough, rocky terrain to him
I discovered a love of things long lain dormant in my soul
Poetry
Words
Art
Music
Culture
I filled my life with people who loved the same
I became inspired
Fell in love with the life I thought we might create
And my life became more my own and less a support of his
I started becoming more of all of me
Less just his wife
Less just the kids' mother
I found a girl I didn't know I had lost
Who I think, maybe, he doesn't like too much
Or
Maybe
He just doesn't know what to do with that girl or how the hell to love her.
{2018.02.19}
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 1:13 AM UTC
I became a girl he didn't recognize
With a voice he had never heard
And I stopped walking on water
I outgrew being his easy girl
His ever understanding wife
And suddenly, I could do plenty wrong
I learned things
A whole new vocabulary
Ethical non monogamy
Agency
Autonomy
Egalitarian
Words and definitions that felt like home to me
But perhaps they felt like rough, rocky terrain to him
I discovered a love of things long lain dormant in my soul
Poetry
Words
Art
Music
Culture
I filled my life with people who loved the same
I became inspired
Fell in love with the life I thought we might create
And my life became more my own and less a support of his
I started becoming more of all of me
Less just his wife
Less just the kids' mother
I found a girl I didn't know I had lost
Who I think, maybe, he doesn't like too much
Or
Maybe
He just doesn't know what to do with that girl or how the hell to love her.
{2018.02.19}
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