God, are you there?

emma_beckett Poems

Dear God, are you there? I can’t seem to feel your warmth anymore. You had your arms wrapped around me so tightly before. God, why can’t I hear you? I swear I am doing my best to listen. Are you ignoring me because of my skepticism? God, do you hate me? I know I have wronged you so many times. Have you decided to at last punish me for my crimes? God, why can’t I see you? You are becoming so hard for me to behold. It’s like I am wearing a thick blindfold. God, are you angry? I know that lately I haven’t been good. I was just trying to do the best that I could. God, why did you take them? You know they meant more to me than the whole world. Without them I am slowly becoming unfurled. God, will you ever come back? I miss you so much that my heart aches. I promise I’ll make up for all my mistakes. God, can you forgive me? I’m sorry that I all have ever done is hurt you. I never paid you the respect you were due. God, will you help me? I have started to make marks on my skin. I do not think I can survive this again. God, can I come home? I often ask you to die in my sleep. I want this so bad that most nights I weep God, do you love me? That’s all anyone every seems to say. But, why do you then ignore me ever time that I pray. God, I’m so sorry. I want to apologize for everything that I am. I know in my heart I deserve to be ****** Amen