I've no idea why I write so much
As I have never had a way with words.
And I don't know why I fight so much
When I am genuinely apathetic toward the outcome of most arguments.
I think I get bored.
Maybe I just--
I like to make things dificult.
I like the combination of puzzle and pain.
It gives me something to fill my little brain.
Purpose.
A reason to be awake.
It's like a game.
But not the kind that children play.
More like a contest.
Who can destroy themselves the fastest?
Except the only prize is self denial and
If you are lucky--
A bit of Jack to wash away the lonliness.
A miserable existence, I know.
I live it,
Because I still have this ridiculous hope
That the empty chair in the kitchen will
Save me from myself.
I'm a senseless,
Rambling,
Fool.
Sep 12, 2012
Sep 12, 2012 at 1:56 AM UTC
I've no idea why I write so much
As I have never had a way with words.
And I don't know why I fight so much
When I am genuinely apathetic toward the outcome of most arguments.
I think I get bored.
Maybe I just--
I like to make things dificult.
I like the combination of puzzle and pain.
It gives me something to fill my little brain.
Purpose.
A reason to be awake.
It's like a game.
But not the kind that children play.
More like a contest.
Who can destroy themselves the fastest?
Except the only prize is self denial and
If you are lucky--
A bit of Jack to wash away the lonliness.
A miserable existence, I know.
I live it,
Because I still have this ridiculous hope
That the empty chair in the kitchen will
Save me from myself.
I'm a senseless,
Rambling,
Fool.
