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I lied when I said I could trust you again. I lied when I said I could easily fend. I lied when I said I was telling the truth. I lied when I told you this was proof. I lied when I told you he looked fine. I lied when I told you it left with the time. I lied when I said it was no big deal. I lied when I told you I could give you time to heal. I lied when I told you I was fine. I lied when I told you I’ve never lied. I lied when I said he wasn’t my best friend. I lied when I told you how much time I don’t spend. Talking to him. I lied when I told you I was doing okay. I lied when I didn’t lie straight to your face. I lied when I didn’t tell you how I felt. I lied when I was uncomfortable and didn’t tell. I lied when I kept a straight face. I lied when I ran past you, upping my pace. I’d be lying if I said I don’t want to tell you. But I’d still be lying if I wasn’t being true. I’d be lying if I said I don’t think about you every day. I’d be lying if I said I was okay. With you not being here, Not knowing why I fear. I’m lying when I say I’m fine without you. I’m lying when I say I’m over what I didn’t do yet. I’m lying when I tell people I didn’t ask for advice about you. I’m lying when I say it’s about someone else. I’m lying when I say I don’t want to be with you. I’m lying when I say I know you like me too. I’m lying when I know I can’t escape. This lying is covering me like a cape. I’m not a liar all the time. But I can’t stop lying, When I tell you I’m fine. Just to see the smile on your face. It makes me feel better. I’m almost okay when I see that smile. It almost makes it all go away. If I saw it more than once a year, Maybe I wouldn’t have to lie about being okay. But don't you tell me you're okay too, Because we both know it isn't true.
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Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 9:53 AM UTC
I'm Okay
I lied when I said I could trust you again. I lied when I said I could easily fend. I lied when I said I was telling the truth. I lied when I told you this was proof. I lied when I told you he looked fine. I lied when I told you it left with the time. I lied when I said it was no big deal. I lied when I told you I could give you time to heal. I lied when I told you I was fine. I lied when I told you I’ve never lied. I lied when I said he wasn’t my best friend. I lied when I told you how much time I don’t spend. Talking to him. I lied when I told you I was doing okay. I lied when I didn’t lie straight to your face. I lied when I didn’t tell you how I felt. I lied when I was uncomfortable and didn’t tell. I lied when I kept a straight face. I lied when I ran past you, upping my pace. I’d be lying if I said I don’t want to tell you. But I’d still be lying if I wasn’t being true. I’d be lying if I said I don’t think about you every day. I’d be lying if I said I was okay. With you not being here, Not knowing why I fear. I’m lying when I say I’m fine without you. I’m lying when I say I’m over what I didn’t do yet. I’m lying when I tell people I didn’t ask for advice about you. I’m lying when I say it’s about someone else. I’m lying when I say I don’t want to be with you. I’m lying when I say I know you like me too. I’m lying when I know I can’t escape. This lying is covering me like a cape. I’m not a liar all the time. But I can’t stop lying, When I tell you I’m fine. Just to see the smile on your face. It makes me feel better. I’m almost okay when I see that smile. It almost makes it all go away. If I saw it more than once a year, Maybe I wouldn’t have to lie about being okay. But don't you tell me you're okay too, Because we both know it isn't true.
I'm really tired of lying.
Last_Romanov
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Last_Romanov
17/A small lonely hometown
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 9:53 AM UTC
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