I've come so far.
3 years ago I had everything.
I was becoming everything.
Right with him by my side.
2 years ago I thought I did.
But I acquired pain & loneliness.
With him by my side, becoming my undoing.
1 year ago I started over with nothing.
I'm ambidextrous.
I've re-invented myself--it took time.
My healed heart chose not to sacrifice my self-worth for just anyone.
After healing came acceptance.
Acceptance that I stutter, constantly at a loss over words & phrases that used to come so easy.
Those three little words used to leave my mouth faster than uncontrolled laughter.
I once thought myself ambidextrous.
But it turns out I am not.
My emotions are like frayed nerves, afferent only, no expression.
Regret is soon to follow--whether from facing rejection or holding it in I don't know.
You scare me.
And the fact that you might not be "just anyone."
And the fact that I might be "just anyone" to you?
Scares me.
Turns out I've found quite the worthy opponent in dancing around the subject...
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 11:28 PM UTC
I've come so far.
3 years ago I had everything.
I was becoming everything.
Right with him by my side.
2 years ago I thought I did.
But I acquired pain & loneliness.
With him by my side, becoming my undoing.
1 year ago I started over with nothing.
I'm ambidextrous.
I've re-invented myself--it took time.
My healed heart chose not to sacrifice my self-worth for just anyone.
After healing came acceptance.
Acceptance that I stutter, constantly at a loss over words & phrases that used to come so easy.
Those three little words used to leave my mouth faster than uncontrolled laughter.
I once thought myself ambidextrous.
But it turns out I am not.
My emotions are like frayed nerves, afferent only, no expression.
Regret is soon to follow--whether from facing rejection or holding it in I don't know.
You scare me.
And the fact that you might not be "just anyone."
And the fact that I might be "just anyone" to you?
Scares me.
Turns out I've found quite the worthy opponent in dancing around the subject...
