I'm a victim, and;
I'm angry about it.
I'm enraged that I identify myself as such.
It infuriates me to think of myself this way.
It isn't an excuse.
It's not my fault;
That I still feel the betrayal like it was yesterday.
That I still flinch and cower when I think about it.
That my body may be healed, but my mind will forever be scarred.
But it was what I was led to believe.
And I'm ashamed;
That I let myself be angry.
That I let myself feel betrayed.
That I will always bear this scar.
But it is not my shame.
It's a part of who I am now;
It has made me stronger.
It has forced me to find my voice, and allowed me to speak out.
It has shown me that it may always be a part of me.
But it is not who I am.
I am a victim; of your crime.
My anger; is the result of your actions.
My shame; stems from your shameful acts.
After all this time, I realize, you were the victim;
To your jealousy; of my power.
You took away my power;
Tried to claim it as your own.
I have reclaimed my voice; and it is you who is powerless.
I am a victim; of yours; no more.
You hold no power over me.
My voice will be heard.
Jan 8, 2018
Jan 8, 2018 at 9:05 AM UTC
I'm a victim, and;
I'm angry about it.
I'm enraged that I identify myself as such.
It infuriates me to think of myself this way.
It isn't an excuse.
It's not my fault;
That I still feel the betrayal like it was yesterday.
That I still flinch and cower when I think about it.
That my body may be healed, but my mind will forever be scarred.
But it was what I was led to believe.
And I'm ashamed;
That I let myself be angry.
That I let myself feel betrayed.
That I will always bear this scar.
But it is not my shame.
It's a part of who I am now;
It has made me stronger.
It has forced me to find my voice, and allowed me to speak out.
It has shown me that it may always be a part of me.
But it is not who I am.
I am a victim; of your crime.
My anger; is the result of your actions.
My shame; stems from your shameful acts.
After all this time, I realize, you were the victim;
To your jealousy; of my power.
You took away my power;
Tried to claim it as your own.
I have reclaimed my voice; and it is you who is powerless.
I am a victim; of yours; no more.
You hold no power over me.
My voice will be heard.