how i spent these years without you
i will never know.
your kindness lowered
my shoulders
and i could finally breathe in freedom.
i could drench myself in your eyes,
soak and unfurl.
my whole heart is here now.
i dried flowers from my chest
until i bloomed violets
and emerged a meadow.
i crossed through your arches
where you held me
with your eyes,
suspended,
to float.
i climbed iron stairs
i hung thyme in doors
and cast shadows into your living room.
i hung branches from my wrists
because i wanted you to see me.
i told them:
“i see everything
all the time”.
they didn't believe me but
i know you see it
all too.
i slowed down my music
so they could hear it
but you heard it all so loud.
i wiped off my lips
and ate bitter
leaves of anise
just so i could feel a pulse on my tongue.
i hung branches from my arms
so i could feel the soil on me
i felt new again when you brought me there;
its like i went upstream
like i fell through walls
like i became a woman
i could only see my eyes
in yours,
and i don't think i can breathe again
(you’re back and everything that i lost
and was brought home again).
Nov 29, 2017
Nov 29, 2017 at 11:40 PM UTC
how i spent these years without you
i will never know.
your kindness lowered
my shoulders
and i could finally breathe in freedom.
i could drench myself in your eyes,
soak and unfurl.
my whole heart is here now.
i dried flowers from my chest
until i bloomed violets
and emerged a meadow.
i crossed through your arches
where you held me
with your eyes,
suspended,
to float.
i climbed iron stairs
i hung thyme in doors
and cast shadows into your living room.
i hung branches from my wrists
because i wanted you to see me.
i told them:
“i see everything
all the time”.
they didn't believe me but
i know you see it
all too.
i slowed down my music
so they could hear it
but you heard it all so loud.
i wiped off my lips
and ate bitter
leaves of anise
just so i could feel a pulse on my tongue.
i hung branches from my arms
so i could feel the soil on me
i felt new again when you brought me there;
its like i went upstream
like i fell through walls
like i became a woman
i could only see my eyes
in yours,
and i don't think i can breathe again
(you’re back and everything that i lost
and was brought home again).
