I don't have any amazing stories about my life and about who I am
I don't even know who I am
And I wish I could lose everything and everyone so I could have a valid reason to end my life
I have the best parents
A loving sister
Dear friends
And they don't deserve the pain that would demand to be felt if I killed myself
I don't deserve what I have
I keep letting everything escape my fingers because I never held on tight enough
And pain is festing on my soul like a hungry animal thirsty for blood
Because lately, I am sure there is something wrong with me
My biggest punishment is being aware of the consequences people around me would endure, the aftermath of suicide
I pay my sins with having to live and disappoint over and over again
I am so so sorry. And I know you are tired of my sorrys. But you are never letting go. Because you love me. And I do not deserve that and it's only making things harder
Please hate me. Please.
Nov 12, 2017
Nov 12, 2017 at 12:05 AM UTC
I don't have any amazing stories about my life and about who I am
I don't even know who I am
And I wish I could lose everything and everyone so I could have a valid reason to end my life
I have the best parents
A loving sister
Dear friends
And they don't deserve the pain that would demand to be felt if I killed myself
I don't deserve what I have
I keep letting everything escape my fingers because I never held on tight enough
And pain is festing on my soul like a hungry animal thirsty for blood
Because lately, I am sure there is something wrong with me
My biggest punishment is being aware of the consequences people around me would endure, the aftermath of suicide
I pay my sins with having to live and disappoint over and over again
I am so so sorry. And I know you are tired of my sorrys. But you are never letting go. Because you love me. And I do not deserve that and it's only making things harder
Please hate me. Please.
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