Insomniac
My head races
My heart pounds
I lie quietly and observe the sounds
I can not stop thinking
No matter how hard I try
It’s like I’m on drugs, all I want is to cry
However I don’t,
I hold myself back
Tonight is not the night for a panic attack
I feel drunk
Nothing is as it seems
All I can remember is flashes of awful memories
I am a failure
And I am gay
Only a few reasons I’m feeling so astray
Soon enough I’ll feel better
All the pain I have will fade
I’m so sick of having to always be afraid
Alone in the dark
All my tears stream about
Everyone seems so peaceful, why am I left out?
I hate being so selfish
It really isn’t fair
People have it so much worse, I don’t really compare
Hours have past now
The sun has now rose
I can feel the release as I start to doze
Finally to sleep I soon shall go
I feel better having had some time to think
That is until it feels like I’m going to sink
I close my eyes
And soon I’m long gone
Good morning world, it’s a new dawn
Oct 27, 2017
Oct 27, 2017 at 6:44 PM UTC
Insomniac
My head races
My heart pounds
I lie quietly and observe the sounds
I can not stop thinking
No matter how hard I try
It’s like I’m on drugs, all I want is to cry
However I don’t,
I hold myself back
Tonight is not the night for a panic attack
I feel drunk
Nothing is as it seems
All I can remember is flashes of awful memories
I am a failure
And I am gay
Only a few reasons I’m feeling so astray
Soon enough I’ll feel better
All the pain I have will fade
I’m so sick of having to always be afraid
Alone in the dark
All my tears stream about
Everyone seems so peaceful, why am I left out?
I hate being so selfish
It really isn’t fair
People have it so much worse, I don’t really compare
Hours have past now
The sun has now rose
I can feel the release as I start to doze
Finally to sleep I soon shall go
I feel better having had some time to think
That is until it feels like I’m going to sink
I close my eyes
And soon I’m long gone
Good morning world, it’s a new dawn
