You were the chaos
of swift currents
sending me under
in a ridiculous
blunder
as I was consumed
by my desire for you.
Angry, jealousy,
all things I thought
I had discarded,
but the brick wall
that was ****** red
which I built up
to protect myself
crumbled
in your clumsy presence
as you intruded
in the life
I had carefully constructed.
Sleep deprived,
driven by emotions
which I knew
clouded my rational mind,
I still longed for you;
And the thought
of the loss
of something
that never was
caused
black waves
of anxiety.
Until, today
when I found me.
I am not hurting
or heartbroken,
but working
on knowing
that some attachments
are better than others.
Oct 24, 2017
Oct 24, 2017 at 10:19 AM UTC
You were the chaos
of swift currents
sending me under
in a ridiculous
blunder
as I was consumed
by my desire for you.
Angry, jealousy,
all things I thought
I had discarded,
but the brick wall
that was ****** red
which I built up
to protect myself
crumbled
in your clumsy presence
as you intruded
in the life
I had carefully constructed.
Sleep deprived,
driven by emotions
which I knew
clouded my rational mind,
I still longed for you;
And the thought
of the loss
of something
that never was
caused
black waves
of anxiety.
Until, today
when I found me.
I am not hurting
or heartbroken,
but working
on knowing
that some attachments
are better than others.
