When the darkness comes all i dream of is the light,
When the light comes upon me all i dream about is the night,
Im a mixed up twisted indecisive individual,
When im mad at you all i want is to feel you put out the fire,
When im sad i tell you to leave me alone in hopes youll decide to stay,
Im high,
As high as i can be,
Laughter,
Smiles,
Hugs too,
But on the drop of a dime i contemplate time,
I feel worthless,
I feel unwanted
And i feel like a mess up,
So i run away so i dont hear "Oh just **** it up",
Because i cant,
This uncontrollable,
Unpleasant,
Undeniably random hell in my mind wont let me,
I didnt ask to be this way,
When life turnes to death in the drop of a hat,
When light turnes to dark in the matter of seconds,
Wanting to escape a room with no exit,
Untill it allows u too be free,
Bi-polar.
Sep 22, 2017
Sep 22, 2017 at 1:55 PM UTC
When the darkness comes all i dream of is the light,
When the light comes upon me all i dream about is the night,
Im a mixed up twisted indecisive individual,
When im mad at you all i want is to feel you put out the fire,
When im sad i tell you to leave me alone in hopes youll decide to stay,
Im high,
As high as i can be,
Laughter,
Smiles,
Hugs too,
But on the drop of a dime i contemplate time,
I feel worthless,
I feel unwanted
And i feel like a mess up,
So i run away so i dont hear "Oh just **** it up",
Because i cant,
This uncontrollable,
Unpleasant,
Undeniably random hell in my mind wont let me,
I didnt ask to be this way,
When life turnes to death in the drop of a hat,
When light turnes to dark in the matter of seconds,
Wanting to escape a room with no exit,
Untill it allows u too be free,
Bi-polar.
Living with an uncontrollable disorder that can be to hard to put in words at times.
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