I felt invisible the last time we were together. You
chatted aimlessly with your friends about the game and
the people and the classes you all despised. I clenched
my teeth as I held back tears from the loneliness in a packed
gym and as loud as it was I swear all I heard were my own
thoughts. We left and I acted only slightly disappointed in
the fact that I was never introduced and you apologized. The
streams of water finally burst through as I closed my eyes in
the passenger seat of your beat-up truck and I blamed it on
the anxiety and it is true that I couldn’t help it. No one ever can
control when they feel lonely and when they feel loved. We
pulled into the restaurant parking lot and I apologized for
my uncontrollably erratic emotions and you kissed me. Your
embrace and kind words reminded me that it was all okay.
That it was just a hiccup. That I would always mean something to you.
And that was our last weekend together.
Aug 4, 2017
Aug 4, 2017 at 11:23 PM UTC
I felt invisible the last time we were together. You
chatted aimlessly with your friends about the game and
the people and the classes you all despised. I clenched
my teeth as I held back tears from the loneliness in a packed
gym and as loud as it was I swear all I heard were my own
thoughts. We left and I acted only slightly disappointed in
the fact that I was never introduced and you apologized. The
streams of water finally burst through as I closed my eyes in
the passenger seat of your beat-up truck and I blamed it on
the anxiety and it is true that I couldn’t help it. No one ever can
control when they feel lonely and when they feel loved. We
pulled into the restaurant parking lot and I apologized for
my uncontrollably erratic emotions and you kissed me. Your
embrace and kind words reminded me that it was all okay.
That it was just a hiccup. That I would always mean something to you.
And that was our last weekend together.
written spring 2015
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