I have come to the conclusion:
I am too aware
Too aware of the people around me
The way they wear their expressions when I speak
Immediately letting me know whether I'm accepted or a put off
Too aware of myself
Carefully choosing each word in my head before spitting it out
Then immediately second guessing the sentence as it falls off my tongue
I begin to think I'm viewed as a joke by many
Someone to make fun of once backs are turned
Someone who is never taken seriously
But that's what happens when too many people make you feel like an outsider in a crowd
Or is it due to overanalyzing each social interaction I have
Feeling untrue feelings
Making inaccurate assumptions
But maybe, just maybe
They appreciate me
But how can you ever really know for sure?
Mar 14, 2020
Mar 14, 2020 at 11:29 PM UTC
I have come to the conclusion:
I am too aware
Too aware of the people around me
The way they wear their expressions when I speak
Immediately letting me know whether I'm accepted or a put off
Too aware of myself
Carefully choosing each word in my head before spitting it out
Then immediately second guessing the sentence as it falls off my tongue
I begin to think I'm viewed as a joke by many
Someone to make fun of once backs are turned
Someone who is never taken seriously
But that's what happens when too many people make you feel like an outsider in a crowd
Or is it due to overanalyzing each social interaction I have
Feeling untrue feelings
Making inaccurate assumptions
But maybe, just maybe
They appreciate me
But how can you ever really know for sure?
This one's for all the overthinkers and overanalyers in every social situation. You are not alone! And more times than not, people do actually like you... Just... stop asking them if they do or not. ;)