I’ve written all these first lines
But I am out at the moment
And
I am drunk
So here is mine
It is 1 am and raining
I want to stand in it naked
Feel the wet and cold bite my body into shivers
Feels almost as good as being punched for the first time
Where you realize that these the people you’re afraid of
Can’t hurt you as badly as you thought they could
I am a body practiced in resilience
We are bodies built soft enough for the bounce back
Only now I am not so sure I can bounce back from this
I want to want someone so badly that thinking about them
Helps me sleep at night
He said
Thinking about her helps me sleep
And I want to be wanted like that
Right now I am tired
Maybe it’s the beer
Maybe it’s the comfort of a bed
That I no longer get to sleep in
My ex is out for the night
And I am in our old bed
If I wake up early enough
Leave before she knows I was there
I will still have slept shamefully
There are days where I remind myself
That the strongest men
Are ones who let the chinks in their armor show
And keep walking
I’ve got some nasty holes you might’ve noticed
But I’m trying
And I’m sorry I push you away sometimes
Just that I don’t want you to see me
When I have to retighten the springs in my knees
To keep the buckle at bay
Or when I have to loosen the screws in my jaw
Tightened from a tear-bite
Holding up this armor is hard
These shoulders want to hang heavy
I don’t want to rust in the rain
I want it to break
So the truth might punch me perfectly
Into understanding that this hurts right now
And even though for the moment I want it to **** me
It’s not going to **** me
I am better than that
But I am lonely
Apr 26, 2012
Apr 26, 2012 at 1:31 PM UTC
I’ve written all these first lines
But I am out at the moment
And
I am drunk
So here is mine
It is 1 am and raining
I want to stand in it naked
Feel the wet and cold bite my body into shivers
Feels almost as good as being punched for the first time
Where you realize that these the people you’re afraid of
Can’t hurt you as badly as you thought they could
I am a body practiced in resilience
We are bodies built soft enough for the bounce back
Only now I am not so sure I can bounce back from this
I want to want someone so badly that thinking about them
Helps me sleep at night
He said
Thinking about her helps me sleep
And I want to be wanted like that
Right now I am tired
Maybe it’s the beer
Maybe it’s the comfort of a bed
That I no longer get to sleep in
My ex is out for the night
And I am in our old bed
If I wake up early enough
Leave before she knows I was there
I will still have slept shamefully
There are days where I remind myself
That the strongest men
Are ones who let the chinks in their armor show
And keep walking
I’ve got some nasty holes you might’ve noticed
But I’m trying
And I’m sorry I push you away sometimes
Just that I don’t want you to see me
When I have to retighten the springs in my knees
To keep the buckle at bay
Or when I have to loosen the screws in my jaw
Tightened from a tear-bite
Holding up this armor is hard
These shoulders want to hang heavy
I don’t want to rust in the rain
I want it to break
So the truth might punch me perfectly
Into understanding that this hurts right now
And even though for the moment I want it to **** me
It’s not going to **** me
I am better than that
But I am lonely
I am out of first lines. I wrote this while very drunk and decided that drunk me and sober me are different enough that this counts. The second stanza is drunk me's line. Also just to be safe I threw in something my friend said to me. I did it without his permission so I won't tell you what he said.... or his name.
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