Held back so many tears, I'm afraid to cry.
I might drown in the overflow of pain I've hidden deep inside.
Sometimes it dawns on my heart,
making it beat unkind.
My lungs start to quiver, I'm dying on the inside.
Held back so many tears, why do I even try.
Been battered by this world and my thoughts,
maybe it's time.
Let it all go.
Dissolve in yourself.
Tired of reading the world and trying to figure it out.
I just want to sit and breathe, and be myself.
Without worrying that this chair might not actually be a chair.
Can I just be ?
Can I just exist without anxiety ?
I fear this world,
this big scary world.
Having a hard time trusting this reality.
My vision goes blurry from the insanity,
but i blink it away and swallow the cry.
Knowing that one day it will be alright.
One day I won't wake up scared to face this sentence.
Truth is I'm all alone but I am completely surrounded by life.
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 7:34 PM UTC
Held back so many tears, I'm afraid to cry.
I might drown in the overflow of pain I've hidden deep inside.
Sometimes it dawns on my heart,
making it beat unkind.
My lungs start to quiver, I'm dying on the inside.
Held back so many tears, why do I even try.
Been battered by this world and my thoughts,
maybe it's time.
Let it all go.
Dissolve in yourself.
Tired of reading the world and trying to figure it out.
I just want to sit and breathe, and be myself.
Without worrying that this chair might not actually be a chair.
Can I just be ?
Can I just exist without anxiety ?
I fear this world,
this big scary world.
Having a hard time trusting this reality.
My vision goes blurry from the insanity,
but i blink it away and swallow the cry.
Knowing that one day it will be alright.
One day I won't wake up scared to face this sentence.
Truth is I'm all alone but I am completely surrounded by life.
Been away for too long.
Alexis Walkes
