treading in
being good
but not good enough
being close
but never quite there
paddling through
exercise quality
determining how well i will feed myself
compulsively squeezing
stomach, thighs, arms
knowing i could be more
if i could somehow be less
drowning in
continuous second guessing
and the slow burn of jealousy
that roils in the pit of my stomach
begging for reassurance
i wish i knew how to float
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 4:41 PM UTC
treading in
being good
but not good enough
being close
but never quite there
paddling through
exercise quality
determining how well i will feed myself
compulsively squeezing
stomach, thighs, arms
knowing i could be more
if i could somehow be less
drowning in
continuous second guessing
and the slow burn of jealousy
that roils in the pit of my stomach
begging for reassurance
i wish i knew how to float
