Robert comes in and tells me about how a bunch of his classmates killed his teacher
It was a freak accident
He says her baby died too
His eyes are deep brown wells
That drain when he is confused
I don’t understand
So I call his school
It was raining
A truck carrying steel poles for construction
Lost one on the road
At the same time that she never saw it coming
She saw it coming
I ask him why he thought that
And he tells me that he goes to the Freak School
And freaks have accidents all the time
When steel meets steel
There is always a fire
Always a spark
Always pressure
Snapping
Grinding
Melting to make harder
The process of building is violent
When he is upset he smashes things
Maybe in the same way people who want to learn
Take things apart
It is in the putting back together
The we understand what it is to be whole
He smashes his own head through a wall
So I hold him violently
His head hits mine and my nose bleeds
Every fight I have ever been in
My nose has bled
With my arms around him
I slide his boots off with my feet
His feet are large
He lumbers with them
I hold him as still
As I can
He hits his head again
Maybe so someone will
Put it back together
He says
Why is Emily so mean to me?
Sisters are just supposed to love their brothers
Sisters are just supposed to love their brothers
I call him Bootsie
Tell him I love him
Though I am squeezing him so hard
He passes out
He apologizes two days later
I tell him
Brothers are always supposed to forgive their brothers
I toast to him in my head
Here’s to becoming whole
Mar 16, 2012
Mar 16, 2012 at 4:10 PM UTC
Robert comes in and tells me about how a bunch of his classmates killed his teacher
It was a freak accident
He says her baby died too
His eyes are deep brown wells
That drain when he is confused
I don’t understand
So I call his school
It was raining
A truck carrying steel poles for construction
Lost one on the road
At the same time that she never saw it coming
She saw it coming
I ask him why he thought that
And he tells me that he goes to the Freak School
And freaks have accidents all the time
When steel meets steel
There is always a fire
Always a spark
Always pressure
Snapping
Grinding
Melting to make harder
The process of building is violent
When he is upset he smashes things
Maybe in the same way people who want to learn
Take things apart
It is in the putting back together
The we understand what it is to be whole
He smashes his own head through a wall
So I hold him violently
His head hits mine and my nose bleeds
Every fight I have ever been in
My nose has bled
With my arms around him
I slide his boots off with my feet
His feet are large
He lumbers with them
I hold him as still
As I can
He hits his head again
Maybe so someone will
Put it back together
He says
Why is Emily so mean to me?
Sisters are just supposed to love their brothers
Sisters are just supposed to love their brothers
I call him Bootsie
Tell him I love him
Though I am squeezing him so hard
He passes out
He apologizes two days later
I tell him
Brothers are always supposed to forgive their brothers
I toast to him in my head
Here’s to becoming whole
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