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Talking myself out of suicide I don't  want to ride so do I get to die? And I don't even want to try. I feel like I'm burning alive by being alive. I wanted to buy mom a house and a ride 5 kids a picket fence and a be a trophy wife. I wanted to honeymoon in Dubai I wanted to make my family millionaires I wanted to be so beautiful I get blank stares I wanted to give everyone everything. But how can I give if I'm worth nothing. I'm sorry I just can't live like this. I've been suffering since 96' Everyone thinks I'm a ***** So if I leave it will make no difference. I'm getting scars from hot showers. I can't be sober for more than an hour. I'm named after a flower But don't bring me Jasmines. Just burn and scatter me at the Eiffel Tower. I don't know, if I do this will I burn in hell? Either way I will get dressed and beat my face. If I'm the Hollywood of Holy Hell.
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Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 7:50 AM UTC
Kodak
Talking myself out of suicide I don't  want to ride so do I get to die? And I don't even want to try. I feel like I'm burning alive by being alive. I wanted to buy mom a house and a ride 5 kids a picket fence and a be a trophy wife. I wanted to honeymoon in Dubai I wanted to make my family millionaires I wanted to be so beautiful I get blank stares I wanted to give everyone everything. But how can I give if I'm worth nothing. I'm sorry I just can't live like this. I've been suffering since 96' Everyone thinks I'm a ***** So if I leave it will make no difference. I'm getting scars from hot showers. I can't be sober for more than an hour. I'm named after a flower But don't bring me Jasmines. Just burn and scatter me at the Eiffel Tower. I don't know, if I do this will I burn in hell? Either way I will get dressed and beat my face. If I'm the Hollywood of Holy Hell.
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Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 7:50 AM UTC
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