I used to long for
metal doors
that melted
forming
pool like portals
to other worlds.
Places where monsters
roamed distorted landscapes,
where skies rained
drops of purple
forming portal puddles
that would take me
to places even farther
from my messed up family.
I dreamed of
adventures tempered by pain
cause I felt there must be
a balance to pay in my fantasies.
Scars for freedom,
bruises equaling
the level of love I deserved,
the level that would earn my
warrior princess’s affection.
Through proof of
unfair punishment
while wielding healing hands
I would help
other victims like myself.
Earning a redemption
that was never necessary.
How strange that even in
my fairytale dreams
I treated myself as unfairly
as the daytime beast
that left red marks on me.
But now that I have found peace
I no longer dream of
a troubled love like that.
I no longer feel I need to earn back
that dignity and tranquility
that was so brutally
stolen from this mother’s son.
Nov 16, 2016
Nov 16, 2016 at 8:08 AM UTC
I used to long for
metal doors
that melted
forming
pool like portals
to other worlds.
Places where monsters
roamed distorted landscapes,
where skies rained
drops of purple
forming portal puddles
that would take me
to places even farther
from my messed up family.
I dreamed of
adventures tempered by pain
cause I felt there must be
a balance to pay in my fantasies.
Scars for freedom,
bruises equaling
the level of love I deserved,
the level that would earn my
warrior princess’s affection.
Through proof of
unfair punishment
while wielding healing hands
I would help
other victims like myself.
Earning a redemption
that was never necessary.
How strange that even in
my fairytale dreams
I treated myself as unfairly
as the daytime beast
that left red marks on me.
But now that I have found peace
I no longer dream of
a troubled love like that.
I no longer feel I need to earn back
that dignity and tranquility
that was so brutally
stolen from this mother’s son.
