The morning air freezes in my lungs,
My chest tightens
My hands are too weak
To hold the panic down,
It rises up from the ground
And wraps itself around my ribcage
The cold has me exhausted
And it's only November
I need to stay focused now
More pain is coming
I take the frost on my windsheild
Like a glaring warning:
"Breathe now.
This is the calm
Before the storm"
I feel like the mountains are laughing,
They see what's coming before it
Reaches us
And they know how ill prepared
We'll always be
They think it's pretty funny,
The heats up all the way
But it's only circulating
Bitter air
In a tauntingly rhythmic
Motion
I am staring into blank space,
Snow blind
And shaking
You are where the pavement is warm
All year long,
And no one ever asks
You to feel their blue hand
On your pale cheek bone
So how do you know what
Sorrow tastes like?
Yeah, I've cried in the warm sun
But it's a unique depression
When it feels exactly like
the whole coast is crying with you
I let every call go to voicemail,
I need more bad news like
A hole in the throat
This is when the overdoses
Start to pile up
My friends are broken
I'm glad I never got there
The cigarette in my hand
Is shivering
While I hold it out
Into the elements,
Unprotected
It fights the stillness,
The thickness,
The grayness
Of Almost-Winter
With its small bit
Of raging fire
But it stands no chance
And as soon as the center
Gets damp,
It starts to taste like cancer
So I drop it over ice...
Watch it try to follow my car,
Watch it fail
And extinguish
Into the ground
That reminds me
I should really call you back
But I'm so tired baby
And sometimes
Maintaining anything
Feels pretty pointless
The earth inhales,
Kinda wheezes,
It sounds too much
like the last three gasps
Of a dying man
Do you know what it's like
To be as tired as the day you're in?
Days are never tired in the south
You'll never know darkness like a northerner
We can smell the bruises forming
Nov 7, 2016
Nov 7, 2016 at 9:01 AM UTC
The morning air freezes in my lungs,
My chest tightens
My hands are too weak
To hold the panic down,
It rises up from the ground
And wraps itself around my ribcage
The cold has me exhausted
And it's only November
I need to stay focused now
More pain is coming
I take the frost on my windsheild
Like a glaring warning:
"Breathe now.
This is the calm
Before the storm"
I feel like the mountains are laughing,
They see what's coming before it
Reaches us
And they know how ill prepared
We'll always be
They think it's pretty funny,
The heats up all the way
But it's only circulating
Bitter air
In a tauntingly rhythmic
Motion
I am staring into blank space,
Snow blind
And shaking
You are where the pavement is warm
All year long,
And no one ever asks
You to feel their blue hand
On your pale cheek bone
So how do you know what
Sorrow tastes like?
Yeah, I've cried in the warm sun
But it's a unique depression
When it feels exactly like
the whole coast is crying with you
I let every call go to voicemail,
I need more bad news like
A hole in the throat
This is when the overdoses
Start to pile up
My friends are broken
I'm glad I never got there
The cigarette in my hand
Is shivering
While I hold it out
Into the elements,
Unprotected
It fights the stillness,
The thickness,
The grayness
Of Almost-Winter
With its small bit
Of raging fire
But it stands no chance
And as soon as the center
Gets damp,
It starts to taste like cancer
So I drop it over ice...
Watch it try to follow my car,
Watch it fail
And extinguish
Into the ground
That reminds me
I should really call you back
But I'm so tired baby
And sometimes
Maintaining anything
Feels pretty pointless
The earth inhales,
Kinda wheezes,
It sounds too much
like the last three gasps
Of a dying man
Do you know what it's like
To be as tired as the day you're in?
Days are never tired in the south
You'll never know darkness like a northerner
We can smell the bruises forming
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