.
it's like finding an exciting new disease
*that you never knew
you couldn't live without*
it becomes your spirituality
after a "spiritual experience"
affecting everything you do
you're on the path to destruction
and you chase things that leave you empty
like impossibilities
you spiral down, down
until you reach the bottom
and there's no one to break your fall
..
after being down for long enough
your anxieties are replaced with apathy
to where up and down look the same
and if you're very lucky, someone may come along and make a huge impact
somewhat restoring your will to live
gratitude turns to love, love to obsession
as they become more valuable to you
than anything else in your existence
...
determined to be enslaved no longer
you cast aside your old, toxic friends
in favor of healthier choices
with a sizeable chunk of your life missing
you are left with a hungry void
that must be filled with something
so you take up a hobby, or several
and feel some contentment, but it don't last
you're trading one addiction for another
....
your demons haven't gone, but
you find you can keep them contained
if you can keep yourself busy
they're too weak to fight, but they will still
try to trick you into submission
by manipulating your dreams
and even with all the will you can muster
you find that you are basically powerless
and your higher power is tired of your ****
...and it will always be a part of you
Oct 26, 2016
Oct 26, 2016 at 4:24 PM UTC
.
it's like finding an exciting new disease
*that you never knew
you couldn't live without*
it becomes your spirituality
after a "spiritual experience"
affecting everything you do
you're on the path to destruction
and you chase things that leave you empty
like impossibilities
you spiral down, down
until you reach the bottom
and there's no one to break your fall
..
after being down for long enough
your anxieties are replaced with apathy
to where up and down look the same
and if you're very lucky, someone may come along and make a huge impact
somewhat restoring your will to live
gratitude turns to love, love to obsession
as they become more valuable to you
than anything else in your existence
...
determined to be enslaved no longer
you cast aside your old, toxic friends
in favor of healthier choices
with a sizeable chunk of your life missing
you are left with a hungry void
that must be filled with something
so you take up a hobby, or several
and feel some contentment, but it don't last
you're trading one addiction for another
....
your demons haven't gone, but
you find you can keep them contained
if you can keep yourself busy
they're too weak to fight, but they will still
try to trick you into submission
by manipulating your dreams
and even with all the will you can muster
you find that you are basically powerless
and your higher power is tired of your ****
...and it will always be a part of you
