Why I Write?

Moi-Cherie Poems

You asked me why I write, why I daily hope again to fight, as I ignite it takes my sight, like lovers in the heated night, & nothin' but a pure delight, musta been a true birthright It covers me & smothers me, engulfing me in flames a place for me to point some blame, & bury me unwanted shame, I know that this is not a game, & not for fame & not for fate, I already gotta a real full plate, & hey they say it's not too late, I am banging on the waiting gate, let out the angry angels & let out the long forgotten hate, it's a crazy little bit of spate, I took a pill, was feeling ill, & went along against my will it takes my heart and runs it shakes apart, in booming guns It's a hiding cluster & I'm a wordsmith hustler guess a real crime buster, yeah I think I trust her, ya know that shiny luster, Hope is dope, grab a rope, the drugs, the thugs, the tiny little budding nugs, the tipping back of happy mugs, giving you a little hug, a white hot plug, electrifying baby an aiming slug, try to get me maybe, a stinging bug, Ouch that hurt! while rubbing in a little dirt, It bites & bites, & then I writes, again, again, again again, yes its true my poet friend, My hands they move to a different beat, & down a different funky street with moving feet, it's groovy, neat, & this is sounding really sweet it repeats, repeats, repeats, Awaiting dictating sometimes frustrating, enticing & slicing my hands always dicing & giving me pricing sweet just like icing, Skating through life, finding creating, all the press is still waiting, and me it is bating, I'm hating the dating, 'cept while we are mating, sweet, sweet loving & good turtle doving is soooo satiating ; ) Sometimes I'm grieving, but always believing & ever retrieving, There is a voice it's not a choice, I hear it now they tell me how, a sense of humor I heard a rumor a cancer's tumor, In the radio the tower on the mountain my pens leaky fountain, signaling changes in the weather, calling me birds of another feather when that lone whistle blows, wherever my shoes may go as high as any flower grows, leaves of fall & winter snow, what the tallest cedar knows, What about the crescent moon & how those lovers kiss & swoon, this could be such a boon, like incandescent bulbs come May in bloom, & hearts with maybe too much room, Aggravating spirits A fever spikes, so I must take a farther hike, a stronger bike peddling & meddling, shining & pining sometimes I'm whining, in the brilliant ink it's the deepest well, the very deepest sink, I'm in the drink, I shouldn't blink, Nevermind to stop and think Like lidocane I am tot'ly numb my mind alive & feeling dumb, it's sticking like a piece of gum as I come all done, I know I'm not the only one, captured by the guilty sun Metaphors the seep my veins taking with them tired chains my chest can breath without the pain Ahhhh so sublime, it's why I rhyme & rhyme why my voice it chimes, Say what you mean and mean what you say because the Sun is gonna rise on some other day, & anyway as a coloring book streaks & takes away the ugly bleak, to seal up the finding leak I must write if I can't speak, In the deepest midnight skies I think I heard an angel sigh, she saw a falling passerby, Turn it up, till death comes again sometimes it comes, a long lost friend one my pen it will defend, my heart it might be on the mend, when pain to me, it looks real pretty, & getting kinda nitty gritty, and scars bleed too from me & you, we bleed our truth, in wisdom of our years and youth, In deep crevasses of beauty it's a poets certain duty, the bones we bury deep in messages they seep, & tiptoe 'round and creep, I dream, I hope I hold on a rope, I'm dizzied by the angles dope, in a hurry and in our worry, we want to be saved calling from a darkened grave, watching shadows dance, as they kiss in sweet romance hoping for another chance, Don't wanna be played, in death to be slayed, plunging a sticking blade, & down my enemy is quickly laid, Rescue me poet you are, you are & you know it too, Sleep peacefully at night, live your life & say it right, you keep the lid on way to tight, open it, let it out just scream & shout but never doubt, hey you got clout, releasing the way in every word you speak and say, Listen intendedly & contentedly find a beat, & take a seat have a treat just grab a pen, & say it again, again, a heart you know you must defend, I hold teardrops in my hands I hold them out & as they land, release me in the said demands, a clench my fist, & I slit a wrist, bleeding & needing, just keep reading love is breeding, I tighten up, I take a sup, I reach you & as you teach me as every one of you beseech me, as minds are racing and hands retracing, as I'm embracing, the poet's calling, again, again I'm always falling falling, in love with life, Like lightning in a bottle I'm a genie, & holding on the throttle, my heart BEATS like the rain I feel it's endless painted pain , it's electric & hectic, I'm a gentle bird a voice I hope is duly heard, can be wounded easily though strong in storms, I fly again, & can't be warned, I'll never fly too far I must reach the closest star, touching souls, drifting & sifting words I'm grifting, I'll never go without saying so no matter where a poet goes or what the traveling picture shows, A hazy start an aiming dart a broken down ol' heart a silly **** (haha) a nice full grocery cart, I'm acting kinda smart, a glowing celestial chart, cuz ya know I think that this is art especially when we drift apart and even more when we depart, Note taking for granted as my feet are planted, words they are slanted & dark art is chanted, If words cut deeper than a knife Just write me out and bring me back to life There is always a compelling story one of histories honored glory, & even if it's kinda gory, I gotta a suitcase to pack a train to get on back track, pick up the slack sometimes derailed by life, divorced from reality, as once I was a loving wife, To tell & share a way to find, a way to care, & yes we must, we must dare, words can't bring me down hey, I love that endless sound, fall & crash back to the ground, I am beautiful & you are too, I know these things, I know it's true skies above they are so blue a color that looks good on you I hear a rap repeating tap leavings of unwanted scrap, a song that I still can sing I hear a voice, my voice it rings another soul, a bell it dings, a dance left to dance a chance of romance, a hand left to hold, the shiniest gold treasure for seekers, for look at life peepers, I hope it's a keeper, I'm delirious but serious, Game changers & rearrangers, in infection & detection not won in a election a sugary confection in delusions & illusions & constant intrusions, the magic is tragic, ecstatic & fanatic this curse could be worse, you could be me as I bleed ink & quickly blink, can't stop to think or ever take a tiny drink Kick the ceiling minds are reeling & keep feeling just touch it just do it to it, come in undo it, It's a really deep well, so I gotta tell it & I try to sell it, close my eyes & try smell it wave a wand & even spell it, I want to take a sip so hear my families battle yip, my heart it just skips & skips a wandering blip just take a little skinny dip, here's a little helpful tip, We gotta spill it, need to **** it because they drill it way down deep, in veins they seep, Oh my *** I think I'm struck & now I'm stuck by luck or fate in love and hate, it's been a date, I had to wait, it's been real great, I can rate & keep it straight Pick up the weight, I can avoid or be annoyed, I tell, I yell my soul, I'd sell, say in a way you understand, so poet here's the perfect plan, Stan I want to dive so we survive, & feel alive, live vicariously through my words, know your voice, it too is heard, As water & gasoline is touching my skin as I reach out, to be new again reaching out to find a friend I'm burning down & hit the ground a violent sound, I turn around, I swim inside the glistening wet, to clean my life from sins & sweat, & anything I might regret, Carbon Copy If there is a God, in him I say, I'm truly awed, I'll find out too, I'm humming right along with you, we cannot undo the sticky glue & residue, words we pray & ones we say, & where we lay or head to pray, Say what I think stand at the brink, & take nice long lasting drink, let the indigo ink, just let it flow, write it down as you go, & let a shining spirit glow, Earths angels party hard, & learn harder we work just a little smarter, get it down get it right as it hits the ground, I'm kicked around, poetic sounds as ears they pound, Sometimes the rain in tears and sun sometimes a battle or a war we won sometimes I cry, inside I sigh, or walking in a dessert dry, my pen will tell & never lie protect me as I wait to die, painting words in pictured skies, so many left unsure goodbyes, diamonds fall from tears they cry, I sometimes think that I, I can't go on until I hear a poignant song, please won't you come along, Sometimes my feet are on the run those setting tangerine skies the blistering hot & sweltering sun, illuminating my darkest ink, & every thought I try to think, a Titanic ship can sink, when you need help I'll beg & steal try my best to make you feel when you are suffering & life not buffering, I'll believe in tomorrow find time we can borrow a bottle to drown out every sorrow I'll love you when you're gone this is a place where I belong together we can sing along, a crutch for a rugged heart a gift of life, a brand new start, so don't be crude or ever rude, I am human too just like them, just like you, a drum don't stop beating or keep on repeating, Keep me up, give me a cup, keep me going, & ever knowing, My heart it never does take rest after the most grueling test, it beats & it heats, in the pain & the rain I can't stop this ugly vain raised it from its darkened bed, now it demands, I hear it said, every single word that anyone has ever said, I heard, crashing burning I am ever learning, & always yearning a day I'm earning, to get a chance, just one last dance before its over to kiss the clover, my starry rover, an Australian drover, To be rendered useless if my words are fruitless, if said in vain, against the grain, it doesn't matter as tears they shatter the sky it sets but you can almost always bet I'll be writing of you & love that's true, & everything that's beautiful trapped in Autumn's wind with tombstone eyes, caught again in sad goodbyes, please baby don't you cry stupid cupid, The bittersweetness of our yesterday's I feel it in the touch one you want so very much again come tomorrow's light again I will take another flight, again I bleed the poets plight, I pray for vision hope & sight listen & get it write, I know I will win the fight burning lamps into the night Add, edit, do that again hold a hand & be a friend, be a lover and a mother, celebrate & graduate, follow & lead ask of us & beg & plead, I will not be afraid, filling every heart it's need drowning out the sounds of greed There is nothing to fear but fear itself, no truer statement could have ever been uttered whispered, or muttered, like sweet Fred that stuttered warm wheat bread that's buttered, It's why we rhyme, we are chasing after time, yup, your words & mine, I go unafraid into darkened night and even with my blinded sight, lit by scars & brilliant stars, candles snuffed out too soon caught by the tail of the crescent moon, I'm mesmerized I can't move my feet unless I hear that haunting beat, as demons flee in sweet defeat, at times I carry the weight of the world & that of my children, that they too are heard ancestors calling as I, I am, I am always falling, Afraid to close my eyes, & look at the skies, afraid of that surprise, and each day I awake, grateful for what I take, I rise up, a phoenix from ashes & blinking eyelashes, while I can still see sight please find a plan, left upon a grain a sand, I'm made of glass & paper I got a pass hey what a caper, Wake it up & take it up just make it up it'll be just fine, I must go unafraid into the long night an endless spinning soulful top one that I hope won't soon stop I am like an aurasma my own Galaxy past the Milky Way Listen close to what I say, As demons flee & I can see in every lovely memory, please say you'll remember me & our history, kicked around & on the ground I still hear that painful sound I think I'll even maybe drown, I might be a muse that the heavens abuse or my words that they want to use, intentions are everything, listening & glistening Watch me burn, ya know I never learn, don't put me out, or even pout we can't doubt, hear me fry, Cuz I, I just keep swimming as waters are brimming, & stones are we are skimming tredding in cold waters, waves pull me under, fires grow hotter, a thinking blotter, cleaving bones I am asunder & broke apart by rampant thunder, Breathless & gasping my hands are grasping in desperation & despair cannot pretend that I don't care, something that I must share, I see a shore, & I've seen it before, just beyond the waiting door, A mascara smudge but please don't judge, or hold a silly hateful grudge I'm through the wading of the sludge I just wouldn't budge, it just took a nudge, Because a beautiful mind one so very, very kind, protected by the hands of time a precious thing a voice, I sing heard in my poetic choice, undiluted not refuted undisclosed, many ohhh's a twitching nose, teaching all in what we know to be silent is a terrible wasted gift to not hear that sound, bring a voice around, the voices ring, I've had a taste, my shoes are laced I can keep the pace, To not write, to seal the vain, relief from pain, would be a terrible waste of a divinely inspired pen. ❤ Cherie Nolan© 2016