I got elbowed in the stomach
At 9 o'clock tonight
I was working
And the woman
I was working for
Stole the wind
Right out of my lungs
And I bit my tongue
And I swallowed blood
Which tasted like
Rusted metal,
Salt water,
And acidic anger
Burning in my gums
I don't get paid enough
To feel like my ribs are breaking;
Trying so hard not to cry
I'm literally shaking
Well, ****
I have no one to talk to
My best friend called
An hour later
To tell me all about
The party she's going to
With kaylee and alexa;
She's dressing as Crown Royal,
I don't know what that means
And I don't ******* care
She doesn't ask how I am
And I don't tell her
She doesn't really wanna know
And I don't really wanna say it
There's a distance
A fluctuation in her voice
That reaches a place
My ears can't get to
I don't hear her sometimes
When she talks about the things
She loves
And I don't know why
Why I'm so disconnected
From twenty-two
I'm not above it-
I like to think I'm not beneath it-
Maybe just floating somewhere
In the atmosphere that surrounds it
My boyfriend is much prettier
Than anything my hands have ever held
And his voice is softer than
The blanket I bought Kiernan
On her birthday,
The one she doesn't use...
He's really deep
When he's sleepy
He makes no judgement
When I'm angry
He isn't coping
With his condition
Lately
But I've never coped with mine
So who am I to mention
I guess I'm just feeling weak
I'm just feeling kinda hazy
I'm just feeling sorta empty
I'm just feeling
Feeling
A little bit
Too much
Feeling
Maybe
Just not enough
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 12:39 AM UTC
I got elbowed in the stomach
At 9 o'clock tonight
I was working
And the woman
I was working for
Stole the wind
Right out of my lungs
And I bit my tongue
And I swallowed blood
Which tasted like
Rusted metal,
Salt water,
And acidic anger
Burning in my gums
I don't get paid enough
To feel like my ribs are breaking;
Trying so hard not to cry
I'm literally shaking
Well, ****
I have no one to talk to
My best friend called
An hour later
To tell me all about
The party she's going to
With kaylee and alexa;
She's dressing as Crown Royal,
I don't know what that means
And I don't ******* care
She doesn't ask how I am
And I don't tell her
She doesn't really wanna know
And I don't really wanna say it
There's a distance
A fluctuation in her voice
That reaches a place
My ears can't get to
I don't hear her sometimes
When she talks about the things
She loves
And I don't know why
Why I'm so disconnected
From twenty-two
I'm not above it-
I like to think I'm not beneath it-
Maybe just floating somewhere
In the atmosphere that surrounds it
My boyfriend is much prettier
Than anything my hands have ever held
And his voice is softer than
The blanket I bought Kiernan
On her birthday,
The one she doesn't use...
He's really deep
When he's sleepy
He makes no judgement
When I'm angry
He isn't coping
With his condition
Lately
But I've never coped with mine
So who am I to mention
I guess I'm just feeling weak
I'm just feeling kinda hazy
I'm just feeling sorta empty
I'm just feeling
Feeling
A little bit
Too much
Feeling
Maybe
Just not enough
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