lonely autumn nights
blisters and calluses
forming on my stiff
cold hands
*(pure cotton
is forgiving of
hasty tendencies
or picky forms)*
wrapped and wound
tightly around my fingers
every loop an attempt
at controlling chaos
*(thinking about
how i'm not
an outcast and
i never was)*
i'm the shoe in the pair
that is slightly too tight
on the one foot that's a
bit larger than the other
or the shirt that you
keep wearing for years
because it fits but you
don't really like it
i am the paint on your
windowframe that's just
fine except for the white
flecks it left on the glass
*(i've never been
an outcast
i've always been
different?)*
i don't like to say
i'm different because
we're all different
i was just different
enough to be a slight
nuisance or distraction
**i apologize too much
for what's not my fault
and too little for what i
should take ownership of**
*(something about my personality
maybe just misplaced anxiety
dictates that all things must be
stacked and aligned perfectly.)*
Sep 24, 2016
Sep 24, 2016 at 1:09 AM UTC
lonely autumn nights
blisters and calluses
forming on my stiff
cold hands
*(pure cotton
is forgiving of
hasty tendencies
or picky forms)*
wrapped and wound
tightly around my fingers
every loop an attempt
at controlling chaos
*(thinking about
how i'm not
an outcast and
i never was)*
i'm the shoe in the pair
that is slightly too tight
on the one foot that's a
bit larger than the other
or the shirt that you
keep wearing for years
because it fits but you
don't really like it
i am the paint on your
windowframe that's just
fine except for the white
flecks it left on the glass
*(i've never been
an outcast
i've always been
different?)*
i don't like to say
i'm different because
we're all different
i was just different
enough to be a slight
nuisance or distraction
**i apologize too much
for what's not my fault
and too little for what i
should take ownership of**
*(something about my personality
maybe just misplaced anxiety
dictates that all things must be
stacked and aligned perfectly.)*