'Poof!'
That's what it sounds like in my mind
when people disappear;
when you no longer get to see them
you no longer get to know them
because you no longer exist to them.
'Poof!'
Like magic.
A great Houdini act.
Black magic.
Witchcraft.
'Poof!'
In that puff of smoke
that billow and wisp and dissipate
before my mind's eye
I see the strands snap, one by one, in the heat.
My thoughts race through galaxies
at a speed to beat sunlight from reaching the earth first.
'Was it easy to just disappear?'
'Just like that?'
'Why?'
'What did I do wrong?'
'Why is it always me?'
'Was I not worth at least word?
Not even the effort of a breath?'
I used to think that that all had mattered,
that I wanted all those important answers
to all those petty questions
until I realized that it might be too late...
I froze in horror at the smell of smoke
of a fire that had been spreading,
crashing down all around me
in waves of liquid fire
that looked cool as ice.
My bridges were burning.
I didn't know I had lit a torch.
Aug 23, 2016
Aug 23, 2016 at 3:02 PM UTC
'Poof!'
That's what it sounds like in my mind
when people disappear;
when you no longer get to see them
you no longer get to know them
because you no longer exist to them.
'Poof!'
Like magic.
A great Houdini act.
Black magic.
Witchcraft.
'Poof!'
In that puff of smoke
that billow and wisp and dissipate
before my mind's eye
I see the strands snap, one by one, in the heat.
My thoughts race through galaxies
at a speed to beat sunlight from reaching the earth first.
'Was it easy to just disappear?'
'Just like that?'
'Why?'
'What did I do wrong?'
'Why is it always me?'
'Was I not worth at least word?
Not even the effort of a breath?'
I used to think that that all had mattered,
that I wanted all those important answers
to all those petty questions
until I realized that it might be too late...
I froze in horror at the smell of smoke
of a fire that had been spreading,
crashing down all around me
in waves of liquid fire
that looked cool as ice.
My bridges were burning.
I didn't know I had lit a torch.
3am thoughts.