Running, running, running from the fears
that I left behind when I said to you,
'I jus can't do it, not any more'
But only in my mind, where nobody,
not even you, my dear
could hear me scream at my demons,
and my demons scream back at me
like banshees sprinting over a fiery hatred,
a loathing of oneself and everything to do
with me.
Turning, turning, turning away from you,
screaming the words to ebb my fear,
'I can do it, I can stay strong'
But I can't, and you know it just as well as me,
though you will not say it,
will not admit that you give up,
give in to the demons I have gifted your soul,
which scream at us both in turn,
Not a burden halved, a burden doubled,
one both of us bear.
Screaming, screaming, screaming the things
I never want to have to say to you,
Broken locks on boxes of secrets
Saying, 'I love you, but I'm afraid to tell you'
Because what I jump into your arms,
with an open heart
and you don't catch me, but you just let me fall
and I can't stop falling, tumbling down to wonderland
But would you even care?
Falling, falling, falling till I break
into tiny littles pieces of a broken heart and say,
'Save me, please,'
Though I know you won't hear me, and if you do,
would you care, would you save me?
Would you even try
to save the girl who loved you,
and who you never told how you felt,
who you confused and dropped into the deep blue sea
Loving, loving, loving forever in the sun
Until the inevitable comes upon us all,
'I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore, it isn't right'
And the pieces of our hearts,
barely stitched back together with soft tongued threads,
are shattered once more,
Like stained red glass lying on a road,
Run over by a car with no care for feelings,
Run, turn, scream, fall, love
It's all anybody knows to do.
Jun 16, 2016
Jun 16, 2016 at 6:18 AM UTC
Running, running, running from the fears
that I left behind when I said to you,
'I jus can't do it, not any more'
But only in my mind, where nobody,
not even you, my dear
could hear me scream at my demons,
and my demons scream back at me
like banshees sprinting over a fiery hatred,
a loathing of oneself and everything to do
with me.
Turning, turning, turning away from you,
screaming the words to ebb my fear,
'I can do it, I can stay strong'
But I can't, and you know it just as well as me,
though you will not say it,
will not admit that you give up,
give in to the demons I have gifted your soul,
which scream at us both in turn,
Not a burden halved, a burden doubled,
one both of us bear.
Screaming, screaming, screaming the things
I never want to have to say to you,
Broken locks on boxes of secrets
Saying, 'I love you, but I'm afraid to tell you'
Because what I jump into your arms,
with an open heart
and you don't catch me, but you just let me fall
and I can't stop falling, tumbling down to wonderland
But would you even care?
Falling, falling, falling till I break
into tiny littles pieces of a broken heart and say,
'Save me, please,'
Though I know you won't hear me, and if you do,
would you care, would you save me?
Would you even try
to save the girl who loved you,
and who you never told how you felt,
who you confused and dropped into the deep blue sea
Loving, loving, loving forever in the sun
Until the inevitable comes upon us all,
'I'm sorry, I can't do this anymore, it isn't right'
And the pieces of our hearts,
barely stitched back together with soft tongued threads,
are shattered once more,
Like stained red glass lying on a road,
Run over by a car with no care for feelings,
Run, turn, scream, fall, love
It's all anybody knows to do.