In these hours
I look at your face
I think
We two, separated, so long.
You with your drugs and *** miniscule friends.
Celebrating a pale youth down bright corridors.
Me stagnating inside a corner or a cabinet of a deep red mind.
Brushing away cobwebs for years,
finally, to make room for you.
When we met again,
On the beach
Or on a ***** sidewalk
Or in the basement
Or with you beside me
With patiently thick fingers
Me screaming
**** me, **** me
It wasn't enough that time to ease the physical pain.
Years of ******** standing slouching smoking,
The complete erasure of my past coming in waves and then, suddenly,
Creeping back into the dark next to the spiders:
A man here, taking me for granted,
A dress with a tear near the knee,
An empty space
A mother placing her daughter tightly away in a large granite box a top a musty gray shelf and waiting outside with the key.
And me inside
And me inside
And the music, a century of loneliness and terror
others and their pain and my own
It all crashed down yesterday
Aha!
I've got you now!
May 30, 2016
May 30, 2016 at 8:24 PM UTC
In these hours
I look at your face
I think
We two, separated, so long.
You with your drugs and *** miniscule friends.
Celebrating a pale youth down bright corridors.
Me stagnating inside a corner or a cabinet of a deep red mind.
Brushing away cobwebs for years,
finally, to make room for you.
When we met again,
On the beach
Or on a ***** sidewalk
Or in the basement
Or with you beside me
With patiently thick fingers
Me screaming
**** me, **** me
It wasn't enough that time to ease the physical pain.
Years of ******** standing slouching smoking,
The complete erasure of my past coming in waves and then, suddenly,
Creeping back into the dark next to the spiders:
A man here, taking me for granted,
A dress with a tear near the knee,
An empty space
A mother placing her daughter tightly away in a large granite box a top a musty gray shelf and waiting outside with the key.
And me inside
And me inside
And the music, a century of loneliness and terror
others and their pain and my own
It all crashed down yesterday
Aha!
I've got you now!
