i feel sick to my stomach
the things that you said
constantly whirring inside of my head
fragmented memories of that hazy, regretful night
i overflow,
punctured by pervading panic
my sense of reality twisting
when we were at one
beautiful, lost and manic
an involuntary act
dragged headfirst by desire's impulse
you know i didn't plan it
struggling i,
try to cut ties
internally censor
shut down my overthinking mind
i freeze,
block out the words i'm holding back with all my might
afraid to ruin the bond between us
the last thing i want is to fight
a cascade of raw emotion
reduced to this sick sad feeling
inside i feel lonely, worn down, bleeding
my fragile heart fractured into glass, revealing
the futile hope at the blackened core
i'm always naked, bare, grasping for something more
May 30, 2016
May 30, 2016 at 1:53 PM UTC
i feel sick to my stomach
the things that you said
constantly whirring inside of my head
fragmented memories of that hazy, regretful night
i overflow,
punctured by pervading panic
my sense of reality twisting
when we were at one
beautiful, lost and manic
an involuntary act
dragged headfirst by desire's impulse
you know i didn't plan it
struggling i,
try to cut ties
internally censor
shut down my overthinking mind
i freeze,
block out the words i'm holding back with all my might
afraid to ruin the bond between us
the last thing i want is to fight
a cascade of raw emotion
reduced to this sick sad feeling
inside i feel lonely, worn down, bleeding
my fragile heart fractured into glass, revealing
the futile hope at the blackened core
i'm always naked, bare, grasping for something more
