I didn't even realize something was wrong
I thought April, last April, was the last of it
That you got better
That I was going to see you again
If I had even thought it was a possibility
I would have hugged you harder at Christmas
I wouldn't have let myself oversleep
I would have stayed up all night
Just so that I wouldn't have missed your last visit
I didn't even know you smoked
That there was a chance of me loosing you because of that
I never even smelled it on you
I thought you would get to meet my kids
See me get married
See me become a grown woman
See me graduate college
See me graduate high school
But then the police came to the door
And I heard enough to piece it together
To figure out you were gone
Why
Why now
Why my Dad's birthday?
Of all the times why now?
Mar 28, 2016
Mar 28, 2016 at 1:58 AM UTC
I didn't even realize something was wrong
I thought April, last April, was the last of it
That you got better
That I was going to see you again
If I had even thought it was a possibility
I would have hugged you harder at Christmas
I wouldn't have let myself oversleep
I would have stayed up all night
Just so that I wouldn't have missed your last visit
I didn't even know you smoked
That there was a chance of me loosing you because of that
I never even smelled it on you
I thought you would get to meet my kids
See me get married
See me become a grown woman
See me graduate college
See me graduate high school
But then the police came to the door
And I heard enough to piece it together
To figure out you were gone
Why
Why now
Why my Dad's birthday?
Of all the times why now?
My Grandfather just died
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