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I conflicted you, confused you, I never meant to but you see baby I'm defective from past and present abuse misused, mistreatment, misdeeds, misconceptions recreated into what you see before you, an explosive mindless mess. I should of got help before letting you in... Should of fixed me before we began but you see papi I didn't want to, because it'd mean letting you go for another to ****** up. Ooh no I could never have that, so I hide my pain- until we fought and I blamed you when it was never even your fault, I tried to drown you in my anguish, causing you to become a beast instead of man! took away your self-esteem making you into what I believed I wanted, believed I needed- to become a better me. See papi I thought if you did all I asked and laid in my bed- things from my past would cease to exist. I thought once we became as one you'd pick up the burden of my broke heart mend me and fix what once was lost, help me to become better even thou I never knew what was yet best for me... I let you in, when I was wounded and while war was raging in my head... All I needed was you in my bed- inside of me pumping nothing but deceit as we consummated a lie, a dream, unrealistic fantasies and things that could never be but still I held on turning you into - what others have turned me to too. Letting you think your the only one when I had him them and those three. I could never love you because at the end of the day I barely ******* loved myself! Always Me Ayeshah ® Copyright © Ayeshah K.C.L.N 1977 - Present YEAR(s) All right reserved ®
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Dec 16, 2011
Dec 16, 2011 at 1:25 AM UTC
MYSELF!
I conflicted you, confused you, I never meant to but you see baby I'm defective from past and present abuse misused, mistreatment, misdeeds, misconceptions recreated into what you see before you, an explosive mindless mess. I should of got help before letting you in... Should of fixed me before we began but you see papi I didn't want to, because it'd mean letting you go for another to ****** up. Ooh no I could never have that, so I hide my pain- until we fought and I blamed you when it was never even your fault, I tried to drown you in my anguish, causing you to become a beast instead of man! took away your self-esteem making you into what I believed I wanted, believed I needed- to become a better me. See papi I thought if you did all I asked and laid in my bed- things from my past would cease to exist. I thought once we became as one you'd pick up the burden of my broke heart mend me and fix what once was lost, help me to become better even thou I never knew what was yet best for me... I let you in, when I was wounded and while war was raging in my head... All I needed was you in my bed- inside of me pumping nothing but deceit as we consummated a lie, a dream, unrealistic fantasies and things that could never be but still I held on turning you into - what others have turned me to too. Letting you think your the only one when I had him them and those three. I could never love you because at the end of the day I barely ******* loved myself! Always Me Ayeshah ® Copyright © Ayeshah K.C.L.N 1977 - Present YEAR(s) All right reserved ®
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Dec 16, 2011
Dec 16, 2011 at 1:25 AM UTC
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