I wake feeling alone
**I sleep next to
a live carcass**
seems impossible huh
**Maybe it's me
I'm the carcass
just maybe huh**
**I have no feelings
or
I'm feeling too much
wanting and needing to much**
I was told;
*"no matter who I'm with
I'll never find happiness"*
**Maybe this unfeeling
non-understanding Carcass
has it right
Maybe it's me and always has been
I should feel alive and content
only thing I'm feeling is pain and confusion
judged and judgement
every day of my life**
**I thought being with this so called man
would be a wise investment
figured I'm hard working plus very family oriented
He's hard working but when it comes to family
I don't see it
He doesn't care unless its about him and his,
I never had someone so disloyal and selfish**
**Maybe that's why I'll never be happy
least not with him
but he's not been the only one to shun me
or disregard my feelings**
*as if the words I say make no sense to him
like I'm speaking in a foreign tongue*
**He seems not to comprehend anything
no matter how many times I've expressed or explained
and I'm so tired of asking ******
**Seems to me I'm always begging
& Naw I ain't to proud to beg
but it's become tediously boring
and no-productive
Sick of myself and not liking
whom I've become
no longer am I care free
I'm more pessimistic than ever
& I just want to be alone!**
Love?
**um I don't think so
I've been in too many relationships
all based on the pretenses
that it was out of "love"
I'm tired
I no longer wish
to be involved
Is it wrong
that I've
given UP?!**
***And is it wrong that
I no longer wanna be
with a living Carcass?!?!***
Copyright ©
Ayeshah K.C.L.N
1977-Present
All right reserved
Dec 5, 2015
Dec 5, 2015 at 3:19 PM UTC
I wake feeling alone
**I sleep next to
a live carcass**
seems impossible huh
**Maybe it's me
I'm the carcass
just maybe huh**
**I have no feelings
or
I'm feeling too much
wanting and needing to much**
I was told;
*"no matter who I'm with
I'll never find happiness"*
**Maybe this unfeeling
non-understanding Carcass
has it right
Maybe it's me and always has been
I should feel alive and content
only thing I'm feeling is pain and confusion
judged and judgement
every day of my life**
**I thought being with this so called man
would be a wise investment
figured I'm hard working plus very family oriented
He's hard working but when it comes to family
I don't see it
He doesn't care unless its about him and his,
I never had someone so disloyal and selfish**
**Maybe that's why I'll never be happy
least not with him
but he's not been the only one to shun me
or disregard my feelings**
*as if the words I say make no sense to him
like I'm speaking in a foreign tongue*
**He seems not to comprehend anything
no matter how many times I've expressed or explained
and I'm so tired of asking ******
**Seems to me I'm always begging
& Naw I ain't to proud to beg
but it's become tediously boring
and no-productive
Sick of myself and not liking
whom I've become
no longer am I care free
I'm more pessimistic than ever
& I just want to be alone!**
Love?
**um I don't think so
I've been in too many relationships
all based on the pretenses
that it was out of "love"
I'm tired
I no longer wish
to be involved
Is it wrong
that I've
given UP?!**
***And is it wrong that
I no longer wanna be
with a living Carcass?!?!***
Copyright ©
Ayeshah K.C.L.N
1977-Present
All right reserved
love is dead, relationships dead, trust is dead, everything's dead but we're still breathing and carrying on as if this life we've shared isn't DEAD!
